Precious moments with euu..

2009-05-29T22:41:00.003+08:00

it wasn't supposed to be like this. they had dinner and movie tgt, they just put the same pm on their msn. why do i feel so outcasted, so neglected? i guess i'm not used to being in the crowd. yeah, i guess. most probably is like this. woh, my heart went pangg when i saw their PMs. i chose to leave the hmm, "clique" , and i wun want to regret it yeah. and i think sh, mx and cy are great friends. (: it's just that i don't really know them v v well . and not that close bah..

cy said that i'm very sensitive towards that kind of thing.. i feel neglected when they talk among themselves or bahbahbah. k , so maybe i shd go consult a psychiatrist? and perhaps i will be diagnosed with some mental problem that requires immediate attention. or perhaps i will feel the same way with SMC and isolate myself totally from the class. and wow, that's so cool. but this sensitive can't be helped, i can't control my sensitiveness, nor control the following emotions.

sometimes i just feel like locking myself up at home and stay in here forever . i don't want to face all the problems out there. i don't want to feel sad, frustrated, disappointed and whatever that comes. Just like a hermit, which hides in its shell whenever a problem comes. A humji coward. Lol. i really think i am that humji fellow. i'm scareddd. and yeah, what do i have for them to call me lao da? haha. none la. lol.

life is full of ups and downs. but why my life is full of downs that i never wanted and never the ups that i desire?

make a decision

2009-05-26T18:39:00.003+08:00

i am very sad now. i don't feel "belonged" in th clique right from the start. it's just that i forgot about this uncomfortable-ness when we began to joke ard . but now , i really sense the problem alr . the 3 of them is like a CLIQUE . den what am i , i'm just a fu shu pin of T ? wtf . they joke with her , play with her , wun i feel neglected ? it's like they 2 are centre of the clique and i must revolve ard them just like T does. F u . just because most of the guys like her she can do whatever she wants . bully T like nobody's business . just because T doesn't mind means she can keep on doing that right . u think i will follow whatever u do , wherever you go . i wouldn't . i'm not ur pet . i go whever i want , i do whatever i want to do . bu shuang with me ? fight la . u chioest in class , got ___ backing , so what ?

say what ? i doesn't talk in lecture. WOW ! i'm so studious man . guai kia seh me . whack u la , is u all never talk to me right . den what u want me to say . the 3 of u talking den i'm not so thick-skinned to butt in hor . and i realised i'm always sitting at the side-side . don't want sit with me jiu say to me , it's not like i will insist to sit with the 2 of u ? idiot .

and i don't believe T is a reliable friend , needless to say the rest of them . i'm so fricking angry and pissed off now , with a teeny weeny bit of disappointment . i don't trust them at all .

I don't like to feel neglected . I don't like to be an "Extra" . I don't want them to talk to me just because i helped them open and hold the door (u think i'm ur slave ?) and save them by giving them answers to some questions ? i'm not so fu qian . it's not like i can't survive without being with you .

even if i'm not ard , it doesn't make a difference anyway . i can feel that the sincerity is not there for me . in many cases, like small small things in daily life, syf period , etcetc . 3 can continue to , u know , carry on . if i go , maybe u will talk bad behind my back to everyone , maybe u don't care, maybe u will "hate" me , maybe u will leak out whatever "secrets" that i told u . But seriously, i . don't . really .care. if i made the decision , it seriously mean that i am prepared to face whatever consequences that may follow. laugh at me (wow) , diao me (wow), ignore me (wow ~) zz. i may feel sad, cause, we were friends . as in , if u did the following to me , it just means that u are not my fren isn't it ?

that's not how a clique should be . that's not the life that i want to lead in JC . hence, that's it .

i guess.

2009-04-28T18:38:00.002+08:00

i have decided to change my url, and closed to public. What i need wasn't ppl's comments on my day.. what i neeed is a space for me to pour out my woes..

JC life is not easy at all. Besides studies, i still need to cope with CCA, relationship with others, which proved to be a challenge for me.

我不可能成为故事里的女生。小说，是我的最爱。我最羡慕小说里的女主角，但我不可能成为她，因为现实的生活是残酷的。

2009-04-11T10:00:00.003+08:00

ilostmyphoneyesterday. ilostanyflickerofhopealr. theuncle nv call, noone pickupmycall. wth shd i do? my phone is not even1yr old. it's 6 motnhs old only!!

2009-03-12T19:34:00.002+08:00

fine, attitude me all you want. like as if i care. if i had known, will i not bring it with me? u said it's not my fault, then? so? there's so much things that i never wanted to know. you know u that you just hurt me with that few simple words? "you were the one i trusted the most.." what do u want me to say? i know it takes time to build up trust, it's just that how can it possibly break when i dun even know the reason why?

反正都已经不相信了，我也没有必要再说什么。你高兴就好。
眼泪，只能流一次。

sorry is no longer useful after the stab. i want to act strong can. i dun want to cry can. i dun want to feel sad can. i want to act mature can. But why does it hurts so much? to hear that she don't trust me anymore. i cann't bluff myself that she still trusts me, that our friendship is still standing strong, cos she made it so clear that we wun get to build up trust agn. sorry is never the word that i want to hear from her. i wan to let go gracefully can. she will have a different life. i can't bear to let go can. it's BITTER, CAN?

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i don't know why, sometimes i will feel the emptyness, and my mind will be filled with the moments in KSS. the CFN, SYF, 2a,4c.. i miss them so much.. i don't feel happy in my class. and not ultra happy in my new sch. i want to turn back time.. where i will go for recess with yunhui and jiaying, secretly eating during the morning assembly, listen to yunhui's act cute-ness, and and , shufen, joey, felicia.. i wonder if i made the right decision, despite the 2 months here, i just do not feel belonged.

2009-03-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

thank God, i have my friends around me, with me, accompanying me and giving me advice, strength and determination to carry on. Esp when i'm feeling lost or anything more than that, they are there by my side. i really love them alot. i think i must have done some charity in my previous life and i have them in this life. heh. there are bound to be things that do not go my way, that i do not like, or even things going against my wishes, but i learn from these, and be a better person, and i strengthen myself. to those that are always by my side, i am super grateful to u !! i seriously do not know what to do without them.

hmm, PI ! MRP ! -dying dying- waaaaaaa, siao liao, dunno how to do siaaaa. helpppppppp !!!!

close one eye !

14march. 5march09331930.

MOURNING.

2009-02-22T12:44:00.002+08:00

I HAVE NOT DONE ANY HOMEWORK AT ALL ! YEST WAS SPENT ON MOURNING OVER MY PHONE LOCK CODE. DD:

Hmm, i played Mahjong yest and lost like hell. -.- It was a crappy day . Let's see, what homework do i have..

1. Maths Binomial tutorial.
2.Phy tutorial (which i don't plan to do -.- , i wun know how to do anyway.)
3.GP MRP.

YAY ! tmrw's MONDAY! MONDAY MEANS I CAN GO TO SCHOOL WITH WANXIN, ALICE AND YUTZE TO-GE-THER~ ! ^^ HEH.

Present is different from the past. I really have to learn to be independent and stop relying on others. D: Some friends can't be relied on; can't be trusted, but that doesn't mean that they are not my friends, it's just that i'm more cautious being ard them. Some friends can be relied on and can be trusted, they are my BFFs, and i enjoy being with them. ^^

要学会坚强！

2009-02-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHH. I'm super tired todayy. hmm, had PE today, i ran 4 rounds of track which is app. 1.6km, 30pushups, and 45 situps. And my face was TOMATO-RED. >< size="5">MAIN point is, I WASTED 4 HOURS OF MY LIFE TODAYY ! i travelled to AMK hub, eat, shop, slack and take bus and walk to side gate(1) and to side gate (2) and to side gate(1) agn and into the sch and climbed to lvl2, walked and to lvl3, and saw janice, and her frens, and did ONE QN of maths, and slacked agn, and slack and slack until i heard sound of a saxo and went to band room and sectionals! yay! i can run my fingers better liao! my fingers have finally DEfroze!! muahahahaha! Anyway, what the hell is the thing abt Kim Jong Ill? And i have to write a 1,000 word essay on that?? What crap ! But i have no choice liao la.. :( that's so BOO.

And my Angel is......... (drum rolls) ,
Shi Jie? lolx.

my eyes are closing alr, and i have to pei my sis to lib tmr early in the morn . SIANN !

ANd i can't believe that i'm only in NYJc for 3 weeks, it seems like forever . -.-

ANd, it's gd sometimes that i don't see things so clearly.

And, history is repeating itself.

2009-02-19T18:51:00.002+08:00

YAY! lol.
omg, i'm so TIRED!
Hmm, lessons have started officially!

let's see.. last day of orientation was FUN, esp the disco night!! And we took photo with our OGLS (: not sure if the whole class was there though..lol..yay, i wan to thank the OGLs , hannah, peiyu and youyu for the 4 days of orientation!

oKAYY. MY PHY SUCKS! woohoo~ can't really do the tutorials. TT.TT why i so stupid? go dig my own grave? )): anyway, i find that maths is quite ez to understand..heheh, at least i'm better at something. although i said that binomial is shit in my last post, it's not true la. HAHA.

AND, my classmates are so pro la. their chem is zai de lor. all so clever, i sure dian di liao. DD: got 3 from china, 1 from m'sia which we suspect comes via scholarship, 1 from msia but grow up in tw but come to sg to study, oh! and 1 half korea half chinese guy and 1 half chinese half indian guy. hehe, so strange de.

speaking of strange! 1st time in my life i know someone whose surname is Ip and Tyan. cos i'm doing the class list, and i saw these 2 surnames. then i was v puzzled, gt this surname one meh? i thought they write wrongly or what..cool lor, unlike mine, LIM. so cooommon.

AndANd, there's this angel and mortal thing. And MY ANGEL READS MY BLOG! HOW ON EARTH DID SHE FIND MY BLOG? AND SHE TAGGED JUST NOW!
i am so itchy to find out who she is!!

HI~ ANGEL!

lolx.

AND, today, our CT teacher nv come, and basically we had lots of FREE PERIODS !! we spent the time, "reference-ing" chem and discussing abt class tee! CLASS TEE!!! hmm, and laughed alot . the guys are so funny. they got laugh at my name lol, my sis name , yutze's name, and alot lah, laugh till my stomach pain. ><

OH, tmr pe, ht and wt. T.T

i wanna grow TALLERRR!!

2009-02-15T18:49:00.002+08:00

BINOMIAL IS SHIT!

i dun really understand ALL of it. ): she haven teach finish how i finish the tutorial ws? ><

went out with panpan today . bought my shoes and socks and cut my hair and Da vinci code at taka and lot1 . she's so funny . and she gt long term and short term memory loss . eh , omg . ><><>< ciaos~

2009-02-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

It's
..........................
ORIENTATION!!!!!!!
WOOHOO!

First day of Orientation was FUN. The first item was DIALOGUE SESSION WITH P, and it's 1 hour. i was like, sian diao. -.- but luckily, he ended after abt 15 mins? cos we don't really have any Q, we just wanna PLAY!!

Next, the ice breaker was super super fun! And my name got called like ard 4 times? it's considered alot alr lor.. and i have to run like so many times. The first time we ran, i bumped into a guy's chest, ouch. My poor left cheek. :( And the worst is, i don't remember who the guy is! Anyway i think it's my name's fault. Cos it's YILI, super duper easy to rmb.

After lunch is MASS DANCE! woah, this is the funniest. I got paired up with this tall guy, who is 183cm, while ME , is only 153cm. a diff of 30CM OK! Then this mass dance gt a part where it's quite similar to KSS's mass dance's octopus. DUE TO THE LARGE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE, we failed the first attempt. -.- then we tried a 2nd time, oso failed. then the 3rd time i TIPTOE-ed , and SUCCESS! And Yutze and her partner keep laughing when we can't do the "octupus", her partner oso suan me seh. But nvm, i'm so used to it. and it's very funny! Kranji mass dance is CHICKEN FEET,PEANUTS compared to this. NY mass dance is fun!!

Games were SHIOK! Learnt alot of cheers, and yea.. GAMES! it's too long to type them out.

I'm the shortest in my class!! BOOO :( 0926 gt no other races, and gt 26 ppl. I quite like it.

Yea. Looking forward to... SENTOSA! TMR!!

2009-02-06T20:13:00.002+08:00

OH YEAH! I'M GOING KSB TMR~ lolx. Tmr's the exchange with HendersonSS. Actually i wanted to say hello to clarinet agn, just get the feel back. tmr basically is to sectional with ppl of HSS band, and lastly full band. Objective is to go there and learn. yea.. (: But i want to llike, play the basics. 7-3 . Most importantly, I FOUND THE FEEL OF BAND BACK!!! WOOHOO!

This afternn, i was very demoralised. I feel very very sad, there are many things that i do not wish to happen. This afternn is not a smooth one for alice, wanxin and i, esp alice.

Like, there's someone that really______ lor.
Can you make an effort to join our conversation? It is not that i am close with the both of them. Before this, i wasn't really close with the one of them. It is not that i am close to them for very long okay. What were you doing when we talked? What efforts did you make to be closer to us? Let me tell you. You were bz sms-ing when we talked and you did not make an effort to talk to us. When anyone of us asked you a Q, you simply gave the answer, without any elaboration. How are we supposed to include u in our conversation when we talk when u are like this? You said that u cannot join, but did u make an effort to? We aren't talking abt things u are not involved in! We were talking abt general things! Unlike you. Do you know that it hurts more to see a friend being closer to someone that she has spent a month with, rather than a friend and classmate for 4 years? It's all in your mind, but , the world isn't all about China! aren't you interested in anything else AT ALL? If no, i must say that you are really pathetic. I am not saying that it's all your fault. Maybe we did neglect you sometimes, or maybe , we just don't click. When we made an effort and saw that nothing was improved, we felt bad. We are from the same origin, and came to a foreign place tgt, shdn't we be more united and bonded under this circumstance? i really dun understand . you changed alot, and i don't understand you now. i am tired of you giving us the cold shoulder, treating us like mud when we so wanted u to join us and be close to us. And let me tell you, u have used up all ur credibility over the years, i simply cannot trust you agn. I'm sorry but, it's hard being around you, and i don't enjoy this feeling.

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You are hard to understand. I have a strong, accurate feeling that you do not like me. You find me a disgrace in front of ur friends? You don't want me to go because you are scared that i will snatch ur place? wth, you really hurt me , u know? And how am i going to face you for the rest of the 5-6 months? What expression do u want me to have? You have a grudge against me, just tell me. You don't like me? Tell me why. Straight forward. i will be happier in NYJc wo you. Of course, i want to thank you sincerely for the coachings for that year.

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0926. I have like ZERO friend there. crap. Going to be a loner. Aww.. ): Sian diao.

In conclusion, today is a SUCKY day. Except for the last part when i want KSB and found my feeling back.

2009-02-05T16:37:00.002+08:00

LIM YILI, your application has been processed.

The subjects you are reading are:
ECONOMICS (H1)
CHEMISTRY (H2)
PHYSICS (H2)
MATHEMATICS (H2)
GENERAL PAPER (H1)
PROJECT WORK (H1)

IMPORTANT NOTE: Your subjects and class are still subjected to changes. Requests for changes in classes and subjects will NOT be entertained.

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My subj combi. :) :)

Orientation stretches over 4 days, from 9 feb to 12feb.No overnight. BOO! :( anyway, we're going Sentosa on the 2nd day of orientation.

I may not be pro enough to get into NYJC band. :( :( :( :( D: There are alr alot of clarinetists in the band, plus competition from AMK sec band. And Alice is the only Oboe-ist, sure get in de lor, den she say, dunwan to place too much hope. walao, i abit bu shuang sia. totally sian diao. -.-

不要放弃希望，只要一直希望，希望就会成真!

2009-02-03T17:22:00.002+08:00

Omg, i hate places with ALOT AND ALOT OF PPL, eg the SCH CANTEEN. SO MANY PPL queueing up for each stall. Piangz. Had to "excuse me~ excuse me~" everytime. Walk until so pekcek.

We attended lectures on chem and econs today, in the LTs ,when others are still having their orientation.. -.- And in between lectures we have free time , and we really don't know what to do when the others attnded chinese, so yutze,yuliang and i went to lib, sit there and wait.wait. wait. wait. It's quite boring. :|

AND, i feel that Kranji uniform is abit not nice compared to others. Really abit only.

ANDAND, im soooooo tired. ):

2009-02-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

Why must they demoralise me even before i start, before i try, before i know my capability? Screw them. I'm already on tenderhooks, and they must make the situation worse. It's not once or twice. It's practically everytime.

Just face it la, yili. 是福不是祸，是祸挡不过. If it's meant to be like this, if it's meant to happen,it's going to happen no matter how unwilling, reluctant,dreadful you are. Anyway, you don't know for sure , don't you? There's this slim chance that it wun happen. Just face whatever comes in your way.

ARGHHH. SCREW MY PRINTER. WHY NO INK?! And things have to happen this way that my day is SCREWED UP JUST LIKE MY PRINTER.

2009-02-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

Read May's blog just now and she wrote out exactly what i felt when i knew i got posted to NYJC initially. It's kind of reluctant initially. Yeah.

I miss 4c!

Plspls, don't ever ever ever let me in. It had been disgrace for the past year, and i don't wish for it to happen again. they always say new school, new life, isn't it? so PLS, TOLONG, i don't every blardy want to get in it again.

2009-02-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

First day of school.
woke up at 5.45am. omg. i think it's a miracle that i can wake up at this 'heavenly' time. NYJ is very condusive. I got a different feeling today from what i got during their open house. And the campus is big and nice. (: Basically we sat in the hall for most of the time. until my bones are about to break. -.- Oh , and did i mention that their hall is air-conditioned? Unlike KSS' hall, which is like a sauna. Hmm, firstly, P's speech, then tour the sch, subjs briefing and lastly, we are going to submit our subj combi by tmr 1pm, online. NYJ is a very IT-savvy school. They really make good use of the sch's web and portal to do things. Everything done online. And, we are like supposed to dl and print the lecture notes from the subjs that we're going to study by today and we're going to use it like, tmr??

For the first week, we're attending lectures. Like a taste of sch routine for the next 2 yrs. Then next week, then will we start our orientation as a class that we will spend tgt for 2 years. I think it's quite ok, as we orientate as a class , and not by OGs, where after orientation, students will spilt into diff classes.
so my 1st subj combi is as following,
H2 Maths, Econs,Phy and H1 chem.
2nd combi:
H2 Maths, Phy, Chem and H1 Econs.

hopefully i can get into 1st combi, cos if i don't mostly likely i wun get into the 2nd one. ><

The P's speech is like so blardy long. I yawned for dunno how many times alr lor. so boring and long. i cannot help it but yawn. lolx.

NYJ have 600+ sci and 200+ arts students with another 600+ students appealing in currently. Acutally i wanted to appeal to AJC, but, i will be very stressed there. With all the 5,6,7 pointers. Argh. So i guess i wun appeal.

And the journey to NYJ is about 1hr 10mins.

Ohoh, and their timetable is very strange! I don't even rmb their timetable.

So as to conclude, first day of school is nice. ((:

Pls, let me get into NYJ band. Pretty please?

Don't let me get in. plsplspls.

2009-01-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

I AM NOT APPEALING. HECKCARE LA.

I just want to survive in NYJ. And i'm so worried that i can't get into NYJsb. cause most of the AMKSS ppl, going NYJ. And AMKSS got Gold for recent last SYF. what shyt. AND, NYJ IS SO DAMN FAR. Alice, Yuliang, George appealing to AJ. that's why my heart feels itchy. But got Yutze and Wanxin. HAIX.

WHATEVER LA.

2009-01-30T20:39:00.002+08:00

Im going to use the method Simlin used.

DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL.
DONT APPEAL TO AJC.

See ppl appeal my heart itchy sia.. >< all those going NY are appealing out. My heart even more itchy. Sigh. But appealing to AJC, i need to take form by today at the sch, but i missed it. Alice told me to go directly tmr to try, but i DIDN'T PLAY CLARINET FOR LIKE 4 MONTHS? And according to my junior, peiwen, needs to take about 1.5 months to reach the normal standard, which is like, HUH. So how can i perform good tmr? It's impossible. And according to alice, the clarinetists are quite strong. ARGH. REALLY. MY HEART VERY ITCHY. SO TEMPTING TO APPEAL.

And Yutze is the only one i know who is not appealing out. Go NYJ really very lonely sia.

I guess im' calling AJ tmr to see if i can go tmr. HAIX.

2009-01-30T12:35:00.003+08:00

NYJC.

omg. >< I need to wake up at 6AM EVERYDAY! Shd i appeal? maybe to aj or sa? Haix. Confirm NYJ are alice and yuliang -.- sia la.

I feel abit.. disappointed and tired. -.- tired cos of the long trip there. SIAN.

2009-01-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! :D GONG XI FA CAI!

"Class Gathering"

2009-01-21T20:14:00.003+08:00

Seoul Garden. Yes, we had our "class gathering" at Seoul Garden. So pathetic la, girls only got Shufen and i . The rest of the them are guys, like Kengwee, Kunda, Genglin, Leonard, Pitsoon, Clive, Eugene, Salihin, Issac, Timothy and Hanyang. Eat until wan to vomit. The smell of MEAT is so strong, and makes my stomach or whatever lurches(?). Then in the end Roger made the soup so disgusting. Really very er xin. It consists of Tomyam Soupbase + Beef + cooked chicken. All in 1 pot. Eww. Then the guys compete . err, Scissors Paper Stone! lolx. Loser had to eat those things. Clive ate a whole bowl of Cherry Tomato, and more and more. Eugene ate a whole bowl of ICECREAM and had to eat 1 scoop of icecream at 1 time. Kengwee ate whole plate of green apples.

Oh, and after that, we went Pool. Eh, Leonard, Eugene, Roger, Genglin , Hanyang + shufen and i at CSC. i first time play pool seh. and so malu la. -.- the white ball so close to the colored ball, and i can miss. But it's my first time k, so it's forgivable. And on the way to CSC, we took bus from Causeway to CSC. WHen we are reaching CSC, Shufen began to nag. " Sia lah, we would have began playing if we took the MRT lor!" i think is sth like that. She said alot of times on the bus, And after alighting the bus, she continued saying. -FAINTED. Lucky i stopped her. -.- Cause eveytime she said, i will hear it. Unlike some of the guys, cause they are talking among themselves. Arghh! But it's very funny. ANd the Pool-ing is SUPER funny! It's hard to describe the funny parts. But it's HILARIOUS. xDD

" Actually is Kunda and Eugene wanted to eat Seoul Garden lor, but they can't find anyone to eat with them, so ask shufen to help them ask ppl. In the end, become "class gathering". " lolx. what a class gathering.

Emo Day ):

2009-01-20T17:04:00.002+08:00

Today is my Emo Day. DDD:
I woke up feeling DOWN, and super no mood to do anything. I dunno why i will emo. Thus, i categorise today's emo as "Random Emo", that is to emo without any clause. Not because something sad or bad happened, not because i am feeling angry or unhappy, but due to an unknown clause. My heart feels heavy and i will keep sighing and sighing. Sometimes my heart will wrench, and i will hold my breath unknowingly. Oh, and i wun talk to people. I tried to msn violet with a hi, and then she hello back. Then, i just close the con. window, which is unlike me. Usually i will diedie crap with her de, but today i din even put in the effort to start a conversation. ><

I wonder why...
Maybe because i fell asleep crying yest? And the sadness continues today?
Maybe I'm a "Sad-nature" person. that means, the sad element overweighs the happy ones?

Hais.

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Ohya.
I dreamt of something that i don't remember. But i can feel that, the dream content is not something that i want it to happen in reality. What is it that i dreamt? A few days ago, i dreamt of a few dreams in a night. But i only rmb the feeling of one dream. ><><

2009-01-19T19:44:00.002+08:00

omg! I'm seriously in love with Jonas Brothers! Although i still can't identify Kevin from Joe.. lolx.. some of their songs are so nice!! I don't really listen to English songs in the past cause i don't really like some of the songs. But now i feel that Eng songs are quite nice also~ I like "Sorry" the most. I feel that the lyric is very nice, and i like the melody very much. :D I'm very slow i know, cause the album has been out for quite some time. -.- Anyway, it's better late than never hor.
Ohya, insomnia from Craig David is also very nice. I will laugh very time i hear this song. why? Because he speaks SOO FAST! My first time hearing someone speaking so fast! And i thought i heard him "zou ying", till now i'm not sure if it's zou ying or it is supposed to be like that.. I think the first time i heard this song was on Countdown party at HanYang's hse, when shufen was playing mahjong..and once again i koped many many songs, including this from Shufen. I think Shufen can be my English Songs Supplier liao. Heheh..

I feel so... sian and afraid at the thought of going to SCHOOL soon. >< New envt, new teachers, new friends, new almost EVERYTHING. :((

I think i have the New-School Phobia. DD: (if thr's anything like this)

Andand, i seriously don't deserve the 2 A1s in Humans. D: seeing classmates' blogs and understanding the disappointment myself. Not that i put in as much efforts as them..I don't even know why i got these grades. I always screw up my SBQs and class tests, esp history and egeog. I am practically failing History all the way from sec3 to sec4. 0I mean they are really talented or that they put in alotalot of efforts for the past 2 years. Unlike me, who did only last-minute memorising. And i feel so sad. Just like my HCL, i feel the same as them, i guess..When i did not get the supposed-A grade for my hcl. I feel very sad too. :( Crap, i feel so ... _______ .><"

BIGBIG HAIS.

2009-01-17T13:36:00.002+08:00

First post of the year! Got back my Ols results few days ago. Okok la..not that bad. >< Raw 12. After bonus pts : 8.
EL : B4
HCL: B3
EM: A2
AM: B3
PHY:B3
CHEM:B3
HIST : A1
CH : A1
CL: A1

It's so contradicting. I had always thought that my Humanities are my worst subjects. BUT, i got A1 for both. And on the the contrary, my chinese...Haix, totally unexpected. and my maths. T.T Crap la, MY MATHS! Esp my EM, thought can get A1 de. -.- But, I'm very contented with my results. (: (: Hm, i think i can get into AJC ba. Just that i got both b3s for my sciences. :(
Ha! and i keep disturbing Violet the past few days. I think she's suppressing the urge to bite me. [Oops!] xD

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BOO! I'M SICK. STUPID, BLOODY FLU. My nose's like an uncontrollable running tap now and my head hurts ,shyt. -.- i hate being sick! T.T haha, and so conincidentally, Violet's sick too~ lolx. Get well soon!

2008-12-04T17:56:00.001+08:00

天秤座學習用平常心面對工作和生活的變動

這幾年天秤座的人總不太好過，許多人總有一種隱隱約約的無力感，一邊想要主動地做些什麼工作來安撫自己的不安，然後任何動作的成果都是石沉大海。

如果你說那消極一點吧！裝作沒事，那麼麻煩事卻又不斷地接踵而至，好像你怎麼做都不對。其實並不是這樣，身為開創星座的你，有一個連你自己都察覺不出來的焦慮，你能夠預先偵測到問題，也喜歡趁著問題還沒發生之前就解決，然而有些問題卻不是預先偵測就可以預防的。

人生當中也總有措手不及的時候，所以你必須學會的，是以平常心來面對工作與生活當中的一切變動。這一陣子急也沒用，逃避也沒用，那麼就等事情發生了再來面對吧！

今年的功課是：找出自己的人生道路

同時，這一年你最重要的工作不是拼業績，不是拉攏主管老闆等著升官，更不是幫助同事，今年對你來說最重要的工作是：靜下心找出自己的人生道路，土星即將在年底進入天秤，若你已經很清楚「自己」要走什麼道路，而不是為了父母的夢想或他人的眼光，那麼你會比他人還要早走出這兩年的困境。

投資運氣不錯，荷包滿滿的一年
2009年的一開始，天秤座就有著不錯的投資運氣，趁著領到年終獎金的時候，找個投資專家給些建議，看準低點的投資時間，分批地把年終獎金放到投資市場上去生錢吧！

夏天的金錢運稍差，可能是受到朋友的影響，例如應酬或救急，容易有許多人來幫你花錢呢！這樣的運勢要維持到九月中，一直到十月你的金錢運勢才開始回升，特別年底你的荷包裝的滿滿的。

人氣旺盛，帶小心情緒化
2009年的一開始你就表現得十分依賴，不僅在情感和生活上都希望有對方的陪伴，這或許會造成對方的困擾。單身的人愛情運勢從一月底開始上升，整個二月一直到三月中都屬人氣旺盛，想和你約會的人恐怕得排隊領號碼牌。
三月中旬到四月中的愛情運勢下挫，此刻戀情容易受到朋友和家人的干擾，讓你很容易火大，但千萬不要因為這樣和家人朋友撕破臉。四月二十日左右戀愛的運勢開始急速上揚，一直到五月都能夠讓你在愛情上有許多機會。
下半的愛情生活容易受到長輩或工作的干擾，遇到困難時別衝動，聽聽理智朋友的建議，不要那麼情緒化的情況下，或許許多問題可以輕鬆解決

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桃花運紅不讓的風光年，吃喝玩樂機會多會影響作息及身材，小心發胖！家庭關系會有變化，需要多關心。要集中心力在某些事物就好，不要每種都沾一下，建議過單純的樂活生活。
戀愛運方面，人見人愛！正桃/爛桃花都有，自己要看清楚

2009 is quite a good year for Libras! (According to above text.)

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Home-fix ppl called. I DESPERATE till go Homefix work. sia la. HQ at... CHANGI. Must the HQ be so far? wth, ostracize West ppl leh! Not fair!!

2008-12-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

Went job-hunting today with Shufen. Abit late ya, din realise till now. -YAWNS-
shd have said anything but waitress(for shufen's sake) and flyer distributors(for mine) to Edwin. Regret liao.. :( sad la..stay at home so sian..practically nothing to do.

1 word - SIAN.

2008-12-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

Sad.
After viewing Violet's blog yest, found out that she dun trust me..and i am oso not a close fren of hers. hais..but i don't have anything to let her trust me..so..ya..still sad... :(

STILL HAVEN FIND A JOB!!!! stupid me. rotting in process at home liao lor. =.=

Receive OLS result before CNY. wth. sure being bombarded by relatives'.............. -.-"""

sian diao..

2008-12-02T14:29:00.000+08:00

Went for interview @ Recruit Express yest with Shufen. Super nervous la. Both of us are first-timers. Went to Ngee Ann City Tower A. We don't know what to do. Finally after waiting for 15 mins, we decided to take the application form. (All thanks to our brave Shufen who asked the person) then we filled in the forms and handed in. Next, we waited for Edwin (the person who called me) to interview us. ~ Not as nervous as i thought as i would be. Perhaps it is quite similar to Band's. Just that yest's one is more relaxed. Waiting for Edwin to call now yeah.

2008-10-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

hais..feel so tired.
like my hard work never ever pays off..some ppl nv study much oso can score better than me.. it's super disappointing can.. like AM prelims2.. only a B3? i dunno.. i really dunno..i have high expectations of myself.. but everytime i fall short of my ecpectations.
OLS is coming. and im only starting to worry like.. now? 2weeks from ols? what a crap. im super SCARED.

胡思乱想，不久后的未来

我不知道，不明白。
有时候，真的真的很想顶嘴。
只是，话到了嘴边就被我吞回。
我不想破坏，这两年的友情。
毕竟，每个人都不一样，
又怎么可能，找到一个能完全了解我的朋友？
毕竟，每个人都有缺点，
要学会包容他们的缺点。
这是你教会我的。

伤心的时候，
其实，我要的是不过是你在我身边而已。
不需要什么安慰的话。
也不是看着我哭泣，
只是在我身边。

有些事，
是我没法说出口的。
你可以明白吗？

我们之间，有许多不同之处。

我都是安静的。

我不明白我自己，
我又怎能希望你们会了解我？
是我的错吧。

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加油。
这是我对你说过嘴多次的话。
我还不了解你。
我怕，
了解你，认识你之后，
我会不喜欢你。
你对每个女生都很好，
我该谢谢你，
让我成为她们的其中一位。
谢谢你
让我幸福短绽。

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JIAYOU!!!

2008-08-23T14:42:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH.
why can't i just control my itchy hands?!!!!!
i just cannot control them from buying novels, AGAIN AND AGAIN.
NOOB HANDS.
next monday is the start of prelims.
cool, which is like the day after tmrw.
i tell u, im having the cold feet now. can i just dun take the prelims? can?
blardy no la.
I AM NOT EVEN PREPARED LA. HOW TO TAKE PRELIMS. i feel that i am so useless. noob me.
and i am addicted to reading novels, BECAUSE MY HANDS ITCHY,GO BUY. BUY SOMEMORE LA YILI. BUY~! BUY TILL YOU POKE THEN YOU KNOW. SEE LA, NOW DISTRACTED FROM STUDIES LIAO. kns. -.-

i random emo la. oso dunno for wad. STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WALAO. CAN SOMEONE CALL ME EVERYDAY AND NAG ME TO STUDY?? I SUPER BO SELF-DISCIPLINE DE LOR. see yh and others so diligently studying, i feel so kns. the feeling is so kns. still it is not kns enough to motivate me. KNS LA. was the hell am i talking??

i just want all bad things to end. i really dunno how to express my feelings and thoughts. end up i suffer all the grievances alone. oso dunno is call wad. just mo mo endure all these things.. SO NOBLE! NOT.

just.. hope all sec4 dun be distracted .as if they will. and jiayous :D

2008-08-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY INVESTITURE!

TO ALL MY CLARINETISTS:
A BIG THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE, DID FOR THESE 3-4 YEARS. I REALLY MISS YOU ALL ALOT ALOT ALOT!! ): sometimes, i really wish i can join in the fun with all of you, but i have a responsibility to shoulder. ya..

TO ADELINE: I MISS YOU THE MOST! *HUGS* thank you for your silence and your accompany when i am down. we shared alot of tears and smiles,especially during last year. we were not close at all until im sec4, you are a sec3. Remember the times during wind de brassion II? I guess it was then when we really got close together and i got to know you so much more.. remember when we used to play the poking game? hahas. that was idiotic, but fun. thank you for helping me all the time! (: MISS YOU THE MOST!! *muackx!*

TO SYAHIRAH: YO. thanks for your cheerful attitude (: made me realised that, hey, no matter how a matter saddens me, i can always pick up my mouth edges and smile again. you always remind me the importance of being cheerful. your happy-go-lucky attitude really influenced me alot. and continue to be like this, even after criticises. YES! THIS IS YOU, IF ONE DAY SYAHIRAH IS NO LONGER LIKE THIS, I GUESS THE SKY WILL BECOME GREEN IN COLOR AND SEA YELLOW IS COLOR! OH YA, AND PIGS WILL REALLY FLY, OVER THE RAINBOW!! HAHA. stay cheerful always! that is my syahirah!!

TO PEIWEN: YOYOYO. let bygones be bygones. (: if i dun like you in the past, i guess i have accepted you long ago. your dedication towards band is one that mine is uncomparable to yours. ditto towards music. i guess it was your passion that changed my attitude towards you. your clarinet skills improved by leaps and bounds, that one day, i told myself, one day, you are going to surpass me. and i was right. partially, i am glad. at least clarinet section will not collapse, with the help of adeline and syahirah. continue to strive on, and i respect you on your unwavering attitude towards music, and towards band. (:

actually, my hopes fell dash for the second time, today, cruelly. our goal and aim for every year - BEST SECTION AWARD. i really think that we have improved alotalotalot!!!! from jane's time, "quackquack" and when thay grad, we vowed to improve and prove the band wrong. Clarinet section was one of the lousiest then. then to Shirlynn's time. we really practised very hard. with shirlynn's encouragement,we improved alotalot. we promised to get the best section award the following year. She cried. This year, today, we failed again. it was like, my heart sank. now i really understand this feeling. i sulked. it was disappointing, super. i was at the brink of tears. However, i reminded myself, CLARINET IS THE BEST SECTION IN MY HEART FOREVER!! FROM SEC ONE TILL NOW, IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE IN THE FUTURE!

SO CLARINETISTS,
WILL WE GET A BEST SECTION NEXT YEAR? IT ALL DEPENDS ON YOU. FOR 3 GENERATIONS, WE HAD STRIVE HARD, WE ARE ALMOST THERE. WILL ALL OF YOU HELP US FULFIL OUR 3-YEAR-OLD DREAM?
I BELIEVE ALL OF YOU WILL. YES.

THANK YOU ALL OF YOU.

BEING ABM WAS NOT EASY. there are times when i cannot defend my own section. times when i have to scold them. times when i have to stop your fun. i am sorry.

if i have a choice..i will not be a ABM.. i will be a very plain clarinetist who purely enjoys being in this section and to play and joke around with all of you; who purely come to band for section, for music, for sirs.

however, my time officially as an ABM has ended. i wish all ex-co to strive hard and bring the band to greater heights!!

lastly..

KRANJI SYMPHONIC BAND ROCKS! <3

2008-08-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

what's wrong la? If you said that you have matured, can you deal with your feelings in a more mature way? not talking and ignoring me is a bad way k. because i don't get the reason why you are angry. you had been attitud-ing me for the past few weeks? what's wrong with you la. can you just tell me WHAT IS WRONG?? i don't have must patience or enduring level. i am angry at not just you. i am angry with myself. you know how hurt i am? i know how hurt you are. the sms, the words you typed. aren't i your friend? you ARE my bestest friend on earth. you know it don't you? but i am not yours. you said i make use of you everytime. i am sorry. i told you this last time did i? if no, then i say it again.
it has been 3 years of friendship, starting from MapleStory. then to real life. We fought, den made it up again. if i really lose her, it just feels not right. what the hell is wrong?

2008-07-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

my heart aches.

there was a period of time when i felt so.. out.
and then, when i wasn't out anymore,
things went well. But not until recently.
i feel like, im a third person.
i feel as if i am an obstacle between them.
i feel that i am the one who caused all these.
it is all my fault..
and when i tried to things better,
i made things worse.
their misunderstanding actually deepened.
and i caused it.
i did not clear the problem..
was i selfish?
did i not did it out of love for my friends?
did i just thought of myself?
im so rotten.
it's like, they told me things,
i wanted to help them convey the msg.
but, did i?

i feel damn guilty.
i am so so sorry to the both of you.
if i did anything wrong,
im sorry.

"perhaps,now i understands how yunhui feels. 被pangseh的感觉. when the friend meant so much so much so much to me."
"but,i will try to understand.i will try to understand."
"she will not be with me everytime, every single day. eventually, her time is divided,among him, among friends, and studies."

i really want to try to understand you, do you know? i do not want to let you feel sadder. i thought i can be always beside you, comforting you, rooting for you. do you know that when i saw you sitting with them, i felt very uncomfortable? do you know that my heart leap with joy when i found you?? do you know that my heart is on the verge of breaking when you asked me to go away? and i felt worse when u said nothing at all when, she went over. sitting in ava room, i thought. i wun be beside u. because, you have other ppl who cares more than i do, other ppl who understands u better than i, other ppl whom you care most about. i guess it will never be my turn. as i think and think, my heart feels colder and colder. and u came in,with TC. do u know how to wipe off ur tears before u come in? typical u. all the while when u were beside me, tears threatened to flow out. when u were with him, she with him, i dun like this feeling. super not. i hate this feeling more than anything else.
i feel so.. out again.
now on the phone with you, u asked me if im alright. what can i say.

2008-07-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

i hope violet is online now..

it's like..what exactly am i good at? i am bad everything. even my supposedly "best" subject chinese is no good too. i studied for it. i thought i can at least get a pass? but no. such a simple topic also can fail. i am really wondering why didn't i drop the last time. now i have no choice but to work hard for it. But it's so sad, so demoralising..all of a sudden, i feel that i have no confidence in myself at all. no one wants to be the worst in anything, but there must be such a person.

and just today i am wondering if i should go for SIBF or NDP, and this result tells me the answer.

or is it the ols stress getting to me? i haven even started revising la. bo ko leng de lor.

they say setbacks make a person stronger, but why doesn't it appiles to me? it only makes me more vulnerable.. :(
it's hard to climb up after falling..so stupid.

i rather not think about you so that
if u see me, u see the real me. :)

2008-07-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

:( i feel so sad.

2008-07-11T20:39:00.003+08:00

MY FIRST JULY'08 POST!
cannot promise that this wun be dead again yea..
i have got so many things to say..so many things that are going on in my mind.
but i believe things will go smoothly in the end. (:
i kinda miss band. i miss the days when going to band means seeing jane, alicia, pauline,shirlynn,jiaying,elaine&janice. :(
hais..

today is zhuo lao shi's first day at SSS. =)
i am sure things went well for her there. i like zhuo lao shi loh..she is very funny de. At first when i don't know her, i thought she very fierce de. but actually she's not. i learnt alot from her, and i look forward to chinese everytime. i really miss her. i wun mind if im spending 5 periods of chinese lessons with her. i think she influenced me alot ba..because of her, i will really write a good essay. not that i wun write a gd essay with mdm yong teaching us la, but it's so .. SIAN. and my 2 compo write outofpt. SUPER SIAN.

and yea,
I CAN GO TMR! ((:
so happy can! but at the same time im quite afraid what is it that im gonna face tmr. =X i am so unfamiliar with tha surroundings and people there. like out of place. ): but no harm trying ba..even if i do sth which is very paiseh i oso wun be scared ba. at least i got yunhui, and Him. (: looking forward to tmr~~

in this life, there will be people who is very irritating. What can we do to help them when they do not listen to other's? i am very angry with someone today. perhaps is the past events that made me so impatient with her, perhaps i ma wrong about her. But i just cant help feeling rather than angry, should be disappointed ba.

yutze said "100 more days to ols."
oh-oh.

A hi, an eye contact, a smile, and a conversation from an unreliable source. Is this what makes me slightly happier?

2007-11-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

SADSADSAD.

today is just NOT MY DAY . NOTMYDAY.NOTMYDAY.NOTMYDAY. so many disasters happened . early in the morning, scolded by alice for being late and somemore i was to collect the band room keys. i was sleeping u know and then she called. damn.. i shd have known the rest of the day was not going to be any better...................

halfway during chongjing, elaine came( because she say her tutor ps her for a grp of frens. =.=) and told me tt sir quite angry. why? because, attendace sux. den i came close to tears. that's de third saddest thing that happened to me today. den, went to band.
at band, worse. my heart felt heavier and heavier as time pass by. all those little little things add together, became so hugh that.. i suddenly cannot tahan and cried. de clarinetists are giving out de neoprints... i suddenly say i dont want. and im soo tired. i just bury my head in my hands, thinking that, if they want the neoprints then take la. abt de decision of the solo clar part and others... and tears came flowing out.. i thought i will be able to endure longer. when my tears are at their peak, guess wad? SIR CALLED FOR MAJORS!!!!!!! DAMN!! at this point of time. best. awal called for haiqel and he's not thr, so is ME. im still crying u know.. head still down..den i bobian.. raise my head.. and i tink elaine shock tio or wad? heard her saying. "aiyoo..yili!" i just laugh? and ran. sir saw me in my pathetic state and asked me wad happen.. but how and wad can i possibly say? just shake my head. i have not recovered from my state of shock. ya.... that's the saddest thing which happened to me today..

i am not gd at making decisions. can i give it to her and accept my decision with no regrets? i tink not. but.. im hesistating la. damn. junior shd let senior wad. that's norm wad. she, the JUNIOR said NOTHING abt letting me, the SENIOR, to play that part. damn. i can just sigh and shake my head in disapproval. _________ will surely side her de la. no need to say. is it appropriate to post this? i scared kana scolding by elaine.

AND ______ , let me down HORRIBLY. wad has she done for the section? pls la, they say family shd help one another rite? but she "chi li pa wai", go help others when we needed help, and when she IS suppose to do her work and she has done NOTHING, not even a cent for us. ridiculous. wads the use of chiding her? she never change wad. i am not saying my attire is very gd or wad. but during band she shd know tt she is a post-bearer and KNOW HER LIMITS. damn her. i'm so pissed off and angry la.

there are so many things and people to consider of. i am giving myself trouble, yet, i cannot disregard their feelings. like im very noble har? NO. BIGBIG NO. sometimes, i feel like a bastard. sometimes i only think of myself, and when the dmg had been done, THEN i will chide myself for the action. and it is too late anyway.

_____ and _______ are very close nowadays.. in section, i feel like extra, no. i feel like i can be invisible. it hurts to see them so close. (that's why i say i feel like a bastard, agree now ya?) i am so stupid la. i shd be HAPPY, ELATED, OVER THE MOON for them!! no fights, no quarrels, ya? they GUARANTEE PLUS CHOP would not notice this. they so retarded. lolx. JK. (hey, but it is true.) while giving out ________, they looks so close! in a fit of anger, i dunwan le. in an instant, her actions made me feel like extra la. 3 years sch mates leh.. i dun eat glass while growing up! i hates it when (like this). tts why i say i feel like a bastard sometimes so many times.

without knowing, i have sat in front of the comp and typed for about 15 minutes. the feeling is like typing a novel. no neoprints, so what? at most, i would not rmb them in future.. will regret la, but who ask me. in that situation, i will react that way. tts me la. and ______ gt secret, i know she gt, stead or wad but she din tell me. okay la. i jealous. i dun mind who-and-who dislike me or wad. i felt jealous. hais.....

my nose bled just now. after bath. too tired, too stressed?, too dry i guess. the taste of blood. eew.. taste so, raw. i can be a vampire!!! OHYA!! I FELL IN LOVE WITH VAMPIRE STORY BOOKS!!!!!!!!! so nice!!! IF U ALL GT NICENICE DE LEND ME KAY?
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okay, so.. back to topic. i guess this feeling is only temp ba.. ohya. they oso go out tgt.... 100% i jealous liao. must drink more water, if not too much vinegar will harm my body. end here bah, with a happy note.

CLARINET OUTING.

2007-11-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

YAY!! OUR 2ND CLARINET OUTING.
SOMEONE was late in meeting us uh, nope. im not the LATEST. although im late. but they are late toooo~~ heheh. saw evelyn, lydia and alicia on my way to Lot1. den walk tgt.. when we reach the control station, we only saw peiwen and jiaying and janice. i guess u all know who's de late one by now ya? dun angry ar elaine! ^^ we headed for causeway first. janice din realise that the building is woodlands civic plaza. lolx. now she knows. lydia and i 4got to bring $$$$$. ROFL. go out nv bring money. tokong la. i got a pathetic $2, which settled my breakfast. hoho. jiaying request for a change of room in party world. say the room too bright, cause the room have a BIGBIG window and we can see the ppl on de MRT platform clearly. haiyo. den we went to a more "romantic" room, sang english songs first cause lydia's there.. yahh.. den de waiter(same as jus now tt one) counted and we have 9 ppl, but we took de room for 8. den he say wad must add money blahblahblah. our SAVIOUR jiaying toktoktok to him and we din have to pay de extra $$. CHEERS TO JIAYING~ but it's funni la, the way jiaying toks. hahah! de waiter came in THRICE to ask for bill. first time- hand us bills, will come in agn to collect. second time- bill not collected yet. cause we totally 4got abt it. third time- as our dear SL janice is not back yet, we did not complete our bill. fourth time- the guy is irritated la. but we gave him de bill. somesort attitude us. =.=
went arcade after that. elaine and jiaying went to METRO. lolx. funn la! den take neoprints and makan. i go my theory b4 and after i eat. if not u will find my corpse lying on de floor of music act choa chu kang room 11. i will die a painful death. okay, too far-fetched. den went for piano lohh... sian.. nv prac at all. but my sight reading is gt standard de okay.. although i cant sight read cut-time. tt one is exception. hehe.

damn.. my specs..........sobsob............ hu ask de arcade build de bball loop so high. de bball rebound and WACK! on my face.

Sectional Leader-Janice
Assistant Sectional Leader-Elaine
Section Librarian-Yili[me]
we will invent more section posts de! but de section librarian is farrni. haaha.

2007-11-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

YOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'M BACK.
okay la, this blog thing is going on and off and on and off and on and off and on and off. =X
today in audi, i met a CBK. scold me noob. damn it la. i'm better than him la. pls loh. thnks to wanxin and gang. rofl. qi si ren. ruined my day. and wanxin say tt's her third time today meeting such bastard.
intro u all this song. "zui hou yi ci" by luvynn kan. ask from simlin or moi or nat. lolx.
the song was tritten by a girl who lost her bf in a car accident and she wrote the lyrics herself. it's sang by her too. very sad song..
im TEMPTED by peiwen[clar] de to join SWS youth. damn it. hahha. she say de all NICENICE songs can!! UBER NICE!! TEMPTED LA!!!!!! gd la she. rahhhh. she say clar section not enuf peeps. damn.. tempted la... but.. i cannot make up my mind.. cos it's ols next year. sobx. see how la.. visiting sws youth next sunday.. weee~ hahha...shd i join anot? but then.. next yr gt concert somemore leh.. sure hiong de loh.. KSB conert in june. SWSyouth concert in april. =.= n their piece is lyk.. 7 night is de second EASIEST. DAMN. win liao loh! zzz zzz zzz....... ZEN ME BAN.

AIYAH. and de christian thing.. hais.. i jus cannot make a decision.

2007-09-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

hais. just no mood for exams.nomoodnomoodnomood. mr lim tuen tuck just told us abt JC subjects combination, and i think that i am more inclined towards the science course. i think i will die a painful death from memorising if i choose the arts course.

Science course. Arts course.
-Maths. -History
-Chemistry. -Geography.
-Physics. -Lit
-Biology. -Language.

the only arts subj im interested in is, Language because it meant Chinese! heard that they have to memorise all the dynasties and wad happened den. Don't know if that's really true though. But it kind of puzzles me, why isn't there any maths course? the answer is quite simple, the "mathematicians" will simply die from solving all those complicated and chimology maths qns. Mr Lim also said that Amaths is required to study maths, i guess that's quite reasonable. diedie also must hang on to my maths. rahhh. but if i choose the science course, my science isn't that good either! so i'm like courting my own death whichever course i choose. damnn. (:
wad about poly. i just don't like the idea of going to poly but well, it's safer in a way that if i can't get into a university, at least i have a poly cert.(which is tonnes better than a Alevel cert) why am i posting about this when i'm supposed to be mugging for my EOY?! oh damn.

today's pe lesson. 2 casualties. both girls. we played captain's ball mixture of boys and girls in a group. i suaysuay group with pitsoon they all. me,yunhui,jiazhi,aisyah,peiyen,pitsoon,jared,clive,eugene and leonard. their reflexes are ubeer good! damn, how i wish i can have their fingers!! aisyah n syahirah was injured. ): take care!

i wonder what will i become after school tomorrow. i think i shall better prepare a dozen of medicated oil.
oh ya, i've watched secret twice in a month. heheh. xiao lun and xiao yu (((:

1 day to my bdae!! ((:

2007-09-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

seriously.
HCL paper was ..
u know, it kills.
i thought paper 1 was quite diff, since i cannot earn my marks in the ji xu wen section.
i went crazy doing bao zhang bao dao.
bo biann~ im letting my expressions [biao da] down. ):
im totally crapping all the way.
thought at least paper 2 will be easier.
BUT.
wad happens?
i was left with lyk 5 seconds to fill in lyk 5-10 MCQs ans for which i totally 4got abt
until mike teo collects de paper.
so i jus anyhow tikamtikam fill in de number WITHOUT referring to the question paper.
who else to blame but ME.
n to think my chinese is de most POWER de liao.
yahh, told tis to some of my frens.
some sae i chinese so gd dont nid scared.
i dont think i need this when im already so down, right?
spent quite a long time doing compre.
i took such a long time to understand n infer de ans.
tts y im not cut out to be humans person.
my inference is as lousy as ever.
god knows y im in tis course.

seriously, i think im going to business course, not arts.
im much happier with maths. not sci.
suaysuay, these 2 is comb tgt de.
n my maths is no whr better den my sci.
okay la, not as bad as my sci.
wads de use of studying hist laaaaa.
arghh.

i have totally no mood to study.
all thnks to chinese paper.
n with my horrible ans, mdm yong is going to mark dem.
i guess she would not have de need to use red pens.
bcos she will vomit blood when she mark my paper.
HAI. WAD KIND OF CHIEF EDITOR AM I.
so, dont be surprise if i emo when i receive my paper back.
it sux.

went to AMK hub yest to so call 'celebrate' my bdae.
i din do any shopping at all. went into a shop playing jay's feng.
in a moment, my nose becomes sour,
feels lyk de moment be4 sneezing. itchy n soury feel.
yah, n tears brimming.
dont know wad happen.
sometimes i feel lyk im lyk a child.
ya. went into de toilet n cried.
crying in de toilet, so no atmosphere.
if i can choose, i will lyk to cry under a sky of stars.
i oso dont know y i cry. stress? perhaps so.
or i tink my body cells r malfunctioning.

i realli dont want to drop any subj or study sub sci next yr. (praying veryvery hard.)

2 days to my bdae~ ^^
actually this is my main aim for today's post. but i ended up pouring everything out.

2007-09-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

wad a day. essays go missing, clarinet case left outside and SL dun even know, 7th night of july ORIGINAL score ALMOST went MIA, production of kspiration delayed. suay anot? n i haven even revised for EOY. die liao loh. no time la. wth. im realirealirealirealireali BRAINDEAD. tink abt title for chongjing, chooose the essays, by the time to tink abt the name of categories, my mind is in a blank. luckily ms tock help us, if not dunno tink until wad time. being a chief editor, i tink i din do much.... oni wrote de words behind de book and type. i mean, everyone can do tt. wadever. so demoralising.

2007-09-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

i listened to into the joy of spring, i felt an unknown sense of regret n sadness. it reminded me of SYF2005. it's still my favourite song after 2 years. kinda sad. no more syf liao. miss those times when we all preparing for tt day.. cannot get myself to do hmwk n study. shyt. EOY is lyk oni how mani WEEKS away.

2007-08-31T17:36:00.000+08:00

Happy teachers' day. okay, i start off my day BADLY. real bad. RAWR. dont wish to talk about it. i was lyk so PISSED OFF with ___ can. i dont lyk her/his attitude. bloody hell. but later on sf told me de story behind it. okay, it's not ENTIRELY her fault. BUT, im still PISSED. den walk-a-jog. shd be walk-a-walk bah. no one is jogging loh. -.- in fact, elaine, regina, huisian, yanying n shufen were talking n crapping the whole journey. n den dont noe y sandy drag yunhui to dunno whr. pangseh by her. ... ... ... not realli. i dint realli ask her whr she's going, ya. i saw sandy dragging her, den i just, suan le n continue walking. went back pri sch. nth la. i mean, it's still de same. chatchat playplay den yaa. meet dem oni lyk, once a year.
i wan tuition! i cannot tahan le. chem,amaths,emaths,phy. so tiring.

2007-08-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

HAIS. almost 2 months never post. i've got so much so much to sae. no time la. i dont know wad've become of her. she's changed so much. even if it's because of D, we r already miles away from d-day. i dont know. i realli dont know. we used to be so close, as a clique. but now..

I DON'T LIKE HIM. lao uncle. i realli hope he will go bald soon. if not, NOW. sia la. i hate him la. biased old fellow. eeks. hate his attitude. hate his tone. wth. anyhow scold ppl. crazy.

I DON'T LIKE HER. si auntie. feel lyk killing her. walao. freak her. teach ___ teach until lyk tt. r de ppl at de back invisible to u? or r u blind? FAGGOT. [teehee, shufen, thnks for ur word] FAGGOT. get it? anyhowanyhow one. siao.

ok la. EOY coming. stress loh. dont know can score hw well. i dont wan to drop hist. i dont want to drop chem. my sci sucks la. cannot help it. from pri sch till now. sucks like hell. i wan to score A1 for chinese and maths. A2 for sci, eng and ss/e.geog. PASS for HIST. i mean de paper itself.
okay, im jus aiming. "aim for the sky, for at least if u cant reach it, u can fall on de clouds."-

CHONG JING! wahseh. so excited. de publishing of chong jing2. heheh. now almost everyday nid go back in sept hols. =.= SIAN. yet SHUANG. heheh.

change blogskin. pink agn. okay. it's a coincidence ok?

2007-07-06T17:06:00.000+08:00

ORAL. arghh. im verbally challenged can. tgt with the vertically and horizontally challenged examiners. hahah. i dint go band. N IM HAVING A FEVER! 37.7 DEG CEL!!!! oh no, dun let me kana dengue kay!!! (TOUCH WOOD!! CHOY!) o.o plsplsplsplspls, let monday be the best day of next week, the luckiest, the healthiest, the chattiest and the smartest!! now i finally truly understand de meaning of, "平日不烧香, 临时抱佛脚" JIAYOU!!

2007-07-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

i think my brain is thinking about things that i'm not supposed to think and things that i'm supposed to think, it is not thinking. i surrender to my brain. Dear Brain, i wave white flag at you okay, i cannot tahan anymore. your stupidness. lyk to daydream and to dream. dream about happy things. sweet sweet dreams! hehe. i have never dreamt a nightmare before leh. maybe i dreamt before, but i forgot. =p anyway, hu wans to remember a nightmare? =0 actually, im not contented with my life. wad is there to be contented about? my life is in a mess, a tipsy topsy mess, just like being turned over. everything goes off. i dun feel like rumaging through it and to turn it over. i am so tired. dont know why, but im getting sick. as in, sick of problems and etc. if there ever is a time turner, turn me back to my primary school days, the carefree, innocent and happy days. there will be some events which i will avoid, some people which i will treasure, and some decisions that i will remake. just feel that, leading a happy and simple life is not so simple, how will one be happy when one has not experienced sadness before? and when one experienced sadness, how can one be happy? i am waiting, waiting for the one who appeared in my dream to appear in front of me. but maybe, dreams never come true? will dream come true? i don't know, neither will i know until the one appear before me. i hate it. i hate myself for being so useless. no talents, no qualities, no brain, no judgement, no IQ, no EQ. everytime make my life difficult for myself. am i an idiot or wad. ok, i know, no need to sae it out, im not an idiot, but im very idiotic. T.T i think, many years after, when i am no longer a galgal, and read this, i will scold myself, YI LI, YOU IDIOT AH! hahah.

2007-06-12T16:07:00.000+08:00

wth. dun complain n solve d prob can.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. maths is driving me crazy la. go n dieeeee. everyday do maths. no wonder i keep dropping hairs. going bald soon liao lo. all maths fault. zz. nth to post.

2007-06-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

showcase over le.. band got de loudest applause!! omg.. when de curtain rise n wow, we heard deafening applause.. haha.. happy sia! grinning like siao. zz tired loh, whole day at RP. zz but then de auditorium hor.. is threatre set up! not concert!.. our sound become so soft. =( then it came to my mind. sec1 dunno wad to bring for band camp.. lolx.. so, i decided to type it out here! i clever anot haha..

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Band Camp 2007 June
Items to bring

- Sleeping Bags (opt.)
- Toiletries ( shampoo, soap, towel etc)
- Undergarments
- Clothes - Band Jersey
1 set of PE attire
1 dark coloured shirt
NO FBT SHORTS
*Note: all clothes stated must be brought
-1 litre water bottle
- Torchlight
- Slippers
- Extra socks (NO ankle socks)
- Alarm clock (opt.)
- Cup/ mug
- Eating utensils
- Stationary, notepad

PLEASE TAKE NOTE
NO ELECTRONIC DEVICES ARE TO BE BROUGHT TO CAMP BAG CHECK WILL BE CONDUCTED.

2007-05-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

almost 4got to post abt tis . on fri, aft the movie, i alighted at cck station . n then, my shoes' strap BROKE . B-R-O-K-E . it just came off liddat . n wth, i was in de middle of the crowd . i had to drag my shoes n of cos, myself, aside . i was like, shyt, wad am i supposed to do now? then i thought, how can i possibly walk into lot1 liddat . i immediately eliminated the idea of going to bata to buy a new pair of shoes . thus, i walked barefooted home . cos i am walking as slow as a snail with me dragging my shoes . then 1 kind-hearted auntie came to me n sae " xiao meiemi, qu lot1 mai yi shuang xie lah . xhan shi yong jiu hao.. hahaha.. na zhong lanlan de lah." [little girl, go lot1 n buy 1 cheap pair of shoes lah. use temporary oni, to walk home. ] tt smile on her face, dunno is laughing at my suayness or wad . arghh . anyway, it's a kind of experience loh . to walk bare-footed home from lot1 . dunno im supposed to cry or laugh . hah .

yes . tmr no SCH!!!! yipppeeeeeeeeeee!

happy mother's day!

i din noe, tt was to feel so sweet n blessed . im grinning from eye to eye . but, i doubt it will last long , judging from the way we behave . supposed to tok to me, but he din . supposed to accompany me, but he din . i dunno wad is he tinking . i am jealous when he toks to another so.. so.. friendly . wth . he oso din sense it . 4get it . lets see wad will happen next.

2007-05-12T15:46:00.000+08:00

200 punds was nice! it's like soo touching . omg . it's a bit late to watch now lah . it's like abt 1 month since its up on cinemas . =x BUT. luckily i go n watch, otherwise i will surely regret. got a feeling tt some parts r being cut away loh.. got a few scenes i din see it.. its either realli im too engrossed in eating LJS or realli cut away. which i believe, is de latter. i wan to watch agn!! i dun mind de! it's the first time i feel like watching a movie agn aft it ended. then aft de movie.. yunhui n i was like.. "maria-ing" all de way.. heheh.. catchy tune i will sae. =p still vividly rmb various touching scenes.

sometimes i just feel like tis. alone in de dark, where my mind wanders..

2007-05-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

YAY!! tmr going movies with yunhui,wanlin n ah nat.. watch 200 pounds beauty.. heard tt is v nice.. heheh.. hands itching to type.. =p shd be memorising my history now.. [shyt] jus dun fail too badly, i am contented alrdy..
n hor. godbless my winnie de pooh keychain.. =( my sis borrowed my bag n lost it! TWICE. first time she realised n hung it back.. then de 2nd time she cun find it anymore.. oww.. my poor winnie..

now itching to play maple.. but cannot! play can play for few hours.. so cannot start. hahah.. hao le.. chiong ah!!!!! last paper liao!

2007-05-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

... realli dunno wad to say, wad to do.. she unintentionally let me feel so small and so tiny compared to herself.. i ~~was~~ am stress.. n she saes sth which let me sink deeper into the deep blue sea, never to emerge. i noe she din do tt intentionally.. but pls.. i know i did badly for tis exam.. im already in a dire straits.. dun push me step by step into darkness.. im v glad for u too tt u can do it.. dun give me tt kind of astonished look..

wad can i sae.. tmr is history paper.. de last paper for mid year. im v tired.. even praying dun help.. 1 wk of endless studying.. until here.. im fatigue.. jus wan to plop onto my bed n sleep n sleep n sleep. no mood to study for history. de word i tink of when i hear history is SIAN! i wonder y they let me appeal successfully into tis WONDERFUL course.. i appealed jus to try my luck.. never expected me to be so lucky.. then do other things so suay.. but its too late to regret now, unless i flunk my history n they ask me to drop. great idea huh.
last paper le! put history as de last paper.. wan us to die issit. shd put as early as possible mah, then can focus on other subj..
shd i listen to it? tts taking a gamble with jus tt sentence.. hm.. maybe i shd jus try my luck agn.. maybe goddess of luck is shining on me!! well, i never noe..

2007-04-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

i hate life! how much longer am i going to pretend and tolerate? how much more can i go? one day i am goin to break down. it's cold, w/o feelings. if i can chose agn, i wun make tt decision.
im jus making a fool of myself. it's realli saddening.. am i such a weak person?? i am strong (mentally) and i will stand strong!! felt like i have no skills, no nth. things sux.

today chem. it is like hell. wad the hell is mole?? i dun get it loh. at first do de questions.. feel like dying.. but then graduallly okay le.. mr kat explain to me until nid to draw pictures. hahah.. brain too slow le. =p okay lah.. i mean de diff part has yet to come.

tmr yunhui bdae.. i tink cannot give her tmr loh.. no time.. de fastest is oso fri.. hais.. how to tell her tmr?!

2007-04-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

hais.. it is de same as 2 yeras ago.. the same results.. but of diff sch.. henderson got bronze.. y like tt??
SYF is cruel. very cruel.

i chose to remain silent. not to speak. i had enuf of her speaking to another person abt the prob. wth. i chose to tolerate. maybe in her eyes i am a narrow-minded person, but i dunwan to argue with u. u always have ppl standing beside n behind n all ard u. u dun think for others' feelings. retarded.

mid year coming liao loh!!! my god. lacking behind like siao.

wth. bball v gd meh. criticise band. wad stupid award oso din achieve still dare say band. at least we got a silver. we improved. unlike somebody, oni dare to sae. u go SYF lah. wth. if u go, COP oso too high for ur standard. dun ever look down on band. angry le!

now is to work hard for mid year. pls.. dun let me flunk kay.. my gosh.. GOD BLESS!!

2007-04-13T16:29:00.000+08:00

yupp.. it's over.. thinking back..
not as nervous as i thought i will be in de morning.. receive 'gd luk' 'jiayou!'s from my frens.. thankyou all =)
we did warming up n tuning.. break then we left as 12.30. when we reach thr, i was worried abt de solo. i kept thinking to myself.. i can do it i can do it.. countless times.. time in tuning room was precious. we were on the stage. sunrise, solo reached. i din do my best. i can do better than tt. i know i can! but .. in de end.. im sry.. very sry.. time past. we finished. we waited for de results. we were in thr hall.i prayed. to feel n touch de gold.. but deep inside.. i get a feeling it's silver..
" Band no.91 , kranji secondary school.. silver."
we cheered, but immediately aft tt, we break into tears. some din noe to feel happy or sad.. we din get de gold. my first n last SYF. it's jus heart pain. isit disappointment? i din do my best! im so afraid tt i will regret tt very second.. when it sounds.. like tt.. wads over is over.. i cant do anything to change anything.. it's a fact.. wadever it is.. although it is de end of this race, but it is de beginning of a new one. we made de a step closer to our goal. we will make it eventually. although i am not 1 of them anymore..
alot of gold bands have drop to silver. at leeast we r of de same standard with them.

cannot concentrate today. did everything in a mess. my mind is jus not on studies. it is on de very sec..'..silver' now de focus is on studies.. jus dun wan to make a mess out of my studies.

2007-04-11T17:51:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GUESS WAD DAY IT IS TMR!!! TMR!!!
IT'S DE DAY WE HAVE ALL BEEN WAITING N ANTICIPATING FOR!
IT IS SINGAPORE YOUTH FESTIVAL!
THE DAY KSB HAS BEEN PREPARING FOR THESE TWO YEARS!

my gosh! in e blink of eyes, it is just tmr! *heart beating v fast*
GOD BLESSS!!!!!!!
we can get gold n we will. first to get results for kranji performing arts.. strrrrrrres ah.

how hard we practise loh.. running notes, high notes, blah.. wad if we dun get gold? breakthrough.. it will be tmr.. create history for de band.. =) jiayou!.. regardless of wad we achieve.. we put in all our best.. may god bless us.

2007-03-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

"i'll be thr for you.."
isn't tt wad the lyrics of our class video saes? after seeing shufen n yuxuan's blog, 2a class video,2a blog.. how much of the hidden memories were being jolted in my mind.. shufen saes.. ppl changed, 2a will never be the same.. but who wun change? 2a o6 does not even exist anymore.. no matter how strong our bond is, how reluctant we were to let go, to be seperated, we cant go back to de past..we wun have a 2nd chalet or a 2nd CFN.. we did treasure din we?.. in tt shortest possible time, we did wad we could, wad we wanted to, wanting to save everything in our minds..
all of us r trying to adapt n blend in to the new environment. no matter wad happens, we will never 4get 2a. deep inside we know tt thr's always 2a.
dun be too sad lah.. seperation is unavoidable..

okay!.. erm nth much today lah.. wan to sleep.. esp until sim chin chin lesson.. cannot tahan anymore..

2007-03-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

hais..yest was an unlucky day..i FELL DOWN u noe! n i fell at de parade square AGN. wahpiang!!! me n the sch ba zi bu he! keep falling.. T.T i lost my balance during until veri big..haha."thumbs up!"heheh..become bai ka liao..actually is quite ok lah.. walkwalk runrun can..then during band, ran alot.. then i realise alicia also hurt n fel during pe, shuttle run also!! hahah..clarinet section de mah..heheh..then wanlin,yutze,yunhui n i use de entire period bandaging..in the end ate with the prefects..so strange..like extras liddat..then 1st period of physics, bandage agn. blood keep flowing..bloody..eeks..when we walked back to the class, im feeling like.. did we realli used 2 periods to bandage?????? then so diu lian also..like every big affair lidat..

then today..family day..nth muchlah..oni that captains ball is realli exciting man!! watch kengwee,pit soon, clive n eugene play.. wah..super exciting!! best!

2007-03-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

haha..long time no post le..too lazy =p and the taxing amt of hmwks tt i nid to do. hais..SYF is appraoching le.. 12/4 thurs. de band b4 us is PingYiSec also playing Sunrise and Overture Jubiloso. when i heard tt i wan to FAINT! how can it be such a coincidence??? suaysuay liddat.. but at least they r not a gold band lah.. haha.. luckylucky..n we will surely play better than them! yes! i played the new clarinet.. erm.. it is like smaller loh.. but very shiny!! new n shiny.. haha.. very happy! got feelings for de old clarinet le loh.. 3 years le leh.. although not v shiny lah.. but still kinda miss it.. <640958> de code for it. then de new clarinet case is stylo loh!! brown then rect. de.. de latch is golden de lor!! wow.. i was mesmerised by it on my first sight.. woohoo!

today i ran 2.4km.. 15min yunhui n i was like.. de best record we had ever ran. at first is 18 min.. then 16 then now 15min.. haha.. woohoo!!

yest geog CT, scare me to death loh!! i wrote mangrove forest for a 9 marks question.. then alot ppl wrote TRF.. i also thought is TRF lor.. but then.. is MF.. luckylucky..haha..

today veri lucky.. haha..

when u r before me, why do i feel myself looking away..trying to act as if i dunno u? avoiding u seems the oni thing i can do now..

2007-03-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.. when to take my results.ohmygosh.ohmygosh.ohmygosh. ohmygosh.ohmygosh. ohmygosh.ohmygosh.ohmygosh. I CANT BELIEVE THIS. I SERIOUSLY CANNOT BELIEVE THIS. I GOT AN FREAKING A1 FOR MY A MATHS N A PATHETIC B3 FOR MY HCL. TT WAS MY FIRST EVER B FOR MY HCL U NOE!!!! I ALMOST BROKE DOWN DURING THE MEET-THE-PARENT SESSION WHEN MR KOH TOK ABT MY CHINESE. somemore bgm is sundial dreams. =.-

i was waiting for my turn, i was feeling so nervous. (thinking abt my chinese n history,mati liao.) LUCKILY i kana mr koh. if not, i dun tink i will be writing this piece of post. haii. my physics still as lousy as ever. i jus dun get it. i dun get de concept. chem is so much easier. =D
i got a shock of my life when i saw my amaths. SCARY.

things to do for next week.(i dun call march hol a hol cos it IS NOT a holiday.)
-chinese creative writing.
-chinese ws.
-chinese oral papers.
-eng letter.
-eng newspaper reflections
-e.maths TYS.
-a.maths ws.
-history reading task.
- physics wb.
-chem ws.
-geog wb

wish me gd luck. imagine having to complete all these in 1 week when i have band for 4 days, left how mani days oni!!! PROTEST LAH!

2007-03-08T18:36:00.000+08:00

i am back :)all i can sae is 'PHEW~' a hectic Feb T.T practically thr r band, performances, n HMWKS. n i can predict how my March Hol is going to be like.hmwks n hmwks, band, and chinese oral. my gosh.

AHHHHH~~~ chinese oral. oh no! im not gd at conversing at all. n i dun realli have much opinion on some issues.

band is taking up alot of time, i must say. but it's worth it =)) although it is time-consuming, but the joy,fun,experiences, exposures n de process is priceless. n we learnt things too. tis march hol, 2 exchanges, mon- wed is day camp. i enjoyed every sec in band.

tmr is meet-the-parents session. de worst thing is tt.. my chinese dropped to B3. i cried hysterically tt day. my chinese is expected, A . my mum will be so disappointed with me. n is not like im doing well in other subjects. others subjs sux too.

y is my chinese like tis?
i thought abt it..
1. others r improving but im standing on de same ground.
2. i did not put in effort in my work.
3. loss of concentration on chinese.

tts my first B for chinese.. well, im disappointed with myself. VERY. EXTEREMELY.i did not expect it to turn out like tis. but, i will work harder for de rest of de term. i got out of de situation in de middle of de term. but i am pulling me back. i dun wan to regret anything once i leave sec sch. jiayou!

for band, 1 moooonth left. abt 10+ more practices. i wonder, if we realli can do it. i realli must work on my running notes( triplets) i want de best for band. 'one band one sound'=D

wad a hectic mundant yet interesting sec sch life i got.

i rarely got complimented by sir, but i did yest. n sir chose me to play de running notes for 1st clar!!![cos of clarity] *im flying over de moon, floating with happiness!!!!* oh my!! =DDDD YES!

2007-02-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

i was super pissed off. to think tt she's my considered closer fren. wth. is not like i dun have any fault, but her tone is totally.. wad did u sae to me??! okay lah, u dun have fault, all my fault loh. today we did drills. so shiok. sweating~ did wrong alot loh =( like de turnings n my reaction slow loh. drop by prabah for dunno how mani times. lil bit lil bit add tgt.. become alot.. spoil my mood. but i dun tink i can be angry at a person for long. no mood to do hmwk liao lah. tmr still going WW concert. CT is phy. I AM DEAD. PHYSICS IS MY DEADLY POINT. I DREAD PHY. BUT I NID TIS CT TO PULL UP MY MARKS. hu ask me do badly in class test =x my aim is, no B4 n below for PPR. then my mum cannot sae band is affecting my studies =D hahahah.. i find it hard to concentrate sitting at de back w/o yunhui. cos trachelle will teach me things.. 4get it. wan to play game liao. qi si ren.

2007-02-09T20:13:00.000+08:00

firstly, tis afternoon..de o levels results were out..when i step in de hall, de atmosphere is so tense, so nervous..n it's like..o levels leh.. dun play play..then i was immediately reminded of a article in sec 2 HCL exam.. de article is abt in hall, got tears n happiness.. in tt place.. then.. i was like..omg,it will be my turn soon! worry for too much. still got 1 year. still long. haha.

then saw my seniors.. SUPER MISS THEM!! alicia,charlene,jane.. hai..time flies..once.. we were sitting in the same room..playing de same song.. listening to de same things.. then now.. they have gone up a step in their life.. see them cry.. i oso wan to cry ler.. is like.. imagine de disappointment u get.. when u practically mug thru de nights to revise? all de intensive revision with frens n teachers, sacrificing de time just for de exam and walking ard as though de books r ur shadows..i was disheartened. really.. suddenly.. alot of thoughts went thru my mind.. y cant life be smooth sailing? y mus it be like tis? y, despite all de efforts, the results were not shown? i thought there was a saying tt goes, " u reap what u sow."? then y r thr some ppl tt dun reap wad they sow? as i walk around in de hall.. i was like.. omg.. happiness n sadness.. ppl phoning family abt their results.. ppl crying.. feeling discouraged n disappointed. congrats to those who did well.. n to those hu did not or have a second chance.. jiayou! as.."de path to success, is filled with detours.."

n.. band was.. alto clarinet came! i came in de music room n de clarinet was thr.. i was like.."wow, brand new." shining loh.. jealous seh..then for OJ me n pauline was.. she n i oni. =.- but i can hear my running notes more clearly =) dunno is i too loud or i change reed. hahas.. then is like.. we watch a clip on a music exchange.. we mus have concert etiquette. like not going off in de middle of performance, not talking..blah.. mus respect the performers..

de funni part is, alice left her bag in de music room, locked. then have to get de keys n KH got de bag out for her. aiyoh. blur alice.

i hate my seating arrangement! is like ppl ard me is cannot tok de. grr.

i got quite high for chem CT. yeah! mus reward myself =)

2007-02-08T17:34:00.000+08:00

tis is de first time i wrote my post in tears..i thought..i rather she din tell me..
pain seems to seeks in slowly..is getting more n more intense..more pain..at first..is like..when i noe i was like, oh okay.. then as time gose by, it gets painner n painner..then it gets..numb..if i noe hu tt gal is.. i bet i can cry until like wangong river like tt.. but it is not like as if i dunno de ending will be liddat..
y did u try to talk to me and sms me when u r not interested? jus when i thought, we r going to be frens..if elaine force u.. then if u dunwan then DUN!

i jus hate it!

2007-02-07T19:47:00.000+08:00

was pretty tired nowadays..n now i have this freakin headache which i am VERY irritated with. guess today was a unlucky day for me. jus knew of a news tt almost sent me to de verge of tears.. left my a maths n elec.geog tb on MY study table at home, n i thot i brought it to sch.. i was finding the books during morning assembly then i rmbed..i left it on my table..
almost sprained my ankle while running 2.4km upon stepping on a branch.. i hate running!! arghh.

next was maths..today was ms choo last lesson with us.. then it's like.. i was thinking.. is thr a time when de whole class listened to her attentively? is thr a time when she was never angry n fedup with us? now i tink she's never ever going to step into our classroom anymore.. n i tink she dun even want to.. she realli taught us a lot.. although i may dislike her at de start.. but gradually..i realised tt she's a very patient n caring teacher.. de questions tt i dunno how to do.. she will teach me patiently.. i ask stupid question she oso will ans me.. it's a saddening thing lah.. i mus sae.. nevertheless..ms choo, gd luck n all de best. (yunhui,not trying to steal ur line..)

n shufen.. everyone will experience sth like tis de.. it is better to make de mistakes now than in de future.. speaking of EQ, if ur's low then i can sae mine is lower than u.. although u r a crybaby.. but mus cheer up =) i like to see a laughing n smiling shufen rather than a crying one.. =)

geog was funni veri funni.. we learnt monsoon forest n timothy's drawing is like so.. toot.. i said it look like de dinosaur de spine.. spiky,spiky de.. guess wads he's trying to draw? de roots. i can infer tt he has 0% of art talent in him.

eng was okay.. felt like sleeping.. dim lights always make me wan to sleep..

band: wow.. it's ur attitude tt determines ur amplitude..
guess tts right.. ppl with poor attitude will never chu ren tou di.

set high goals; aim for the sky, for at least u fail, u can reach de clouds..
well, it reminds me of , de higher the expectations;de larger the disappointment..

it is not about how long u practise, but how much u get done..
the others i 4got.. i vaguely recall is abt.. teamwork, road to success..

haiyah.. syf is coming.. but we r.. not prepared.. dun have de spirit de.. urge for syf.. wth. is stress de loh.. time to reflect on my attitude.. i will practise hard for syf! cos we r a team.. we cant fight de battle with oni sirs n teachers.. my one n only SYF in my sec sch life.. mus treasure it..

life is veri tiring.. so much to do n learn.. it is like a never ending quest..

i have learnt not to get my hopes high up. i wonder how ppl face it..

life has its ups n downs.. im situated right at de low point.. i wan to run away from reality, cos truth hurts.. it hurts. but i mus face up to it..at de expense of some sacrifices.. but.. i cant.. im at de breaking-point..

2007-02-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

hmm..lets see..so fast is mon liao

feel like sleeping loh..esp at ss n eng, damn boring.. somemore i slept for 6 1/2 hours oni! is tired de loh.

i was quite hyper at hist. sth happened,peiyen n i was like laughing then i somehow..
er..spat my saliva..it.. it was UNINTENTIONAL, n UNPLANNED! u noe..i cant believe i did sth like tt. oh gosh. disgusting act of mine. it landed on her hand.. but it was veri farni u noe.. ke lian de peiyen i mus sae.. n tmr's her bdae. hahha.. sry wor peiyen!

then b4 morning assembly.. peiyen hurt her little toe then wear slippers mah.. then her tiny toe wrapped by plaster cos her nails break..
yunhui was asking me wad to buy for PY bdae..then i sae i dunno..then i tink is
jiaying said, buy slippers for her.
yunhui: no lah buy plaster!
me: buy nails even better loh!

hahha..is hen lame lor!!
maths n phy teacher din come..
then yunhui,roger,timothy, kunda n i was playing Bingo.. then is super funni lor them.. gao xiao de.. then aft is wu gui wu gui tiao! is play using de fingers de lah.. then alice came oso.. aft playing this 2 games, i came to a conclusion tt..
my reaction is quite slow de loh.. =( wu gu wu gui tiao is hai hao lor, my fingers quite alert n fast..(mus be de results of de running notes.. =)) but bingo is.. die liao..i v slow de..

but then, this 2 games r fun! but i still miss mahjong! mahjong rox!

i realise tt.. i can oni concentrate on 1 thing at a time.. n wad i chose to concentrate on now .. was not u..or wad will happen btwn us.. i knew i have to pursue.. but y not u? i took the first initiative.. it was not easy.. im not a intiative kind of person.. or i shd sae..both of us r not.. we both nid someone to 'push' us.. but tt someone will not always be thr to push us..

2007-02-04T14:18:00.000+08:00

i rmbed i sort of..
scolded my fren..
blast me.
sorri ah jiaying..
=( next time treat u
okie?..

wth.
mon got physics class test
tues got SS ct
thurs got hist class test.

tonite got PSS finals.
mus rmb to watch.
n btw, shopoholic is nice =)

2007-02-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

jus now i sae videos which i laugh until wan to die..
is SUPER farni n lame.
hahaha..
is kranji secondary school secondary 4B'o7's class video!
dunno if i put will offend ppl anot..
but 4get it..

got 3 parts.
n it gets funnier n funnier each time.

part 1.

part2.

part3.

taken by: Joshua Cheong

2007-02-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

it's finally friday!
i got up early so tt i wun be late
for meeting alice.
who knows tt she called me n said tt
she will be late.
wasted.
so tired loh.
esp. aft night safari trip.
all de FLYING BATS N FLYING SQUIRRELS.

then in physics.
i learnt a new word.
'agaration' by mr koh.
so farni.

did i mention tt i hav a urge to kill elaine?
arghh.
sabo me.
she put her hp on loudspeaker n..i practically screamed into de phone..(forget it.qi si ren.)n some1 heard it.
in de end they laughing at me. (tsk.)
elaine ang u gd.
i so damn blur.
she on loudspeaker i oso dunno. ='[
actually got suspicious lo..
but then she gave a lame excuse n i actually believe her!

yest i oso blurblur send wrong person msg.( i dunwan to become a sotong!)

i took my clarinet test.
it . is . a . d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r.
i went aft shirlynn.
shirlynn was crying..
then i was just up aft running down to pick up my score
which went flying down with de wind to de paraade square.
i see her crying..
make me so nervous!

n ava room is v hot.
is super nervous de lor.
got sir badrul,mr kat n kenny.
ok, erm plus a video recorder.
then sir go n switch off de fans.
cos it keep blowing my paper.
then i hav to keep stopping.

i fumbled my scale study n sight-reading.
i wan to knock my head on e wall lah!
i have de same sight-reading piece as elaine
then b4 i went in,
elaine got sae she was tested on tt.
then i din practise!
aiyah.
my sight-reading sux esp. with cut-time.
sir gave a lot of neg. comments..
then is like..
oh no..sure fail le.
then mr kat was mouthing
de words which is not a gd sign.

MUST IMPROVE.
-hearing
-flat with low notes.
-shape de phrasing(cres. decres...)
-dynamics

then in de end at,sunrise,
he got sae,
running notes in tempo
quite sweet tone
got all de notes correct
then tts all..

quite disapointed with myself loh..
i tink i got a just pass.
expecting a moderate pass.
but..
got pass lah. better than fail..

then guess wad alice did today.
she brought some1 to sae sth to me.
haha..actually is quite comical
hahha.(laughing at elaine's reaction)

i feel so guilty lah.
i keep pangseh-ing her.
haix..

y is valentine's on wed?
y wed got band??

i was waiting..
but u din find me.

2007-02-01T19:32:00.000+08:00

lots of things happened.

my darr n best fren were heart-broken..

once gone..it will never come back..
tt guy of handling things sucks.
he may not be a flirt..
he may be zhuan yi.
but he made a gal cry.
tts wad a guy never shd made the gal do.

i did my best to cheer her up.
well..
i tink she did cheer up a bit.
cos tt's wad she wanted to see.

then is..
my darr.
tt guy is wth.
make darr so sad..
trust her to take e initiative
n tok to him.
jerk!

at that moment,
i feel a sudden surge of bravery
flowing within my body.
i opened my mouth..
n thr it goes..
the initative.

2007-01-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

long time no update..
im determined to get my blog alive again!!

hahha.. still dun quite adapt to de new environment..
stil tink im sec 2.. =p

keng wee n pit soon is so noisy.
wth.
fedup.
y is my maths teacher a ah-po
who speaks so softly?
dun quite understand her sometimes.
tsktsk.

n i can confirm tt shufen is missing me so much tt
she dreamt of me cooking sth..
its v lame. =.-

neway thrs a chinese lesson.
whr both classes combine..
n it's like..
it's de old 2a agn.
n 2a's back.
de class became lively n noisy agn
with de guys.
i realli miss de crapping of de guys
n de nonsense we talk.

hais..
but neway..
3c is..
erm..
quite quiet EXCEPT for kengwee n pitsoon.
n i realised haiqel's a kind soul.
n a bao-ga-liao chairman.
hahaha.

n my chem partner is isaac.
then share bench with may n george.
wads so funny is tt,
in front of us were shufen,eugene,yunhui n clive
n oh my gosh!
short tall short tall..
i was laughing like siao.
hahaha!
n poor george is de bench rep
has to keep going out to get things for us.
hahha.

n oh no.
my maths sux like hell.
i STILL dun understand indices.
luckily yunhui sit beside me.
can teach me.
heheh.

okay.
for hist n eng..
yunhui,shufen,jiazhi all seperated from yutze n i
yutze n i have to xiang yi wei ming le.
hai..
i sabo yutze to be de hist rep!
hahaha..

tink i typed quite alot le..
wan to link peeps le.

n i have not memorise my arpeggios n intervals.!!

2007-01-06T17:32:00.000+08:00

YEAH! IT'S 2007!!
de 6th dae of a new year!

wed
leadership camp.
haix.
1st dae of sch..
like..
everything is FF-ing
well,
im back to sch!
everyone was so quiet at first.
but it got better.

thurs
went sentosa.
my face got half sun-tanned.
arghh.
n y is palawan beach so far?
walk until legs going to break.
amazing race is so fun!
i almost knock into a pillar near Dolphin Bay.
how blur am i.
it rained 1/2 way
n we..
walk back..
others take tram..

fri
brainstormed for family day
n wrote a proposal.
n presented.

isawhim.
well,wadcanisae.
itwashardtoconvincemyself.
irathernotseehim.

2006-12-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

din post for 2 wks le.
basically,im busy watching bleach!
hahahahahha..
bleach is really nice!

thenn..
today resume band.
i woke up 5 mins earlier loh
tinking tt i wun be late agn.
hehhe..
BUT THEN.
while waiting for alice,
i4got tt i nid to bring e present
for gift xchange!!!!
then i called alice
cos is alrdy 8.25 le..
then i ran back to get my gift.
hoping tt i wun be late
n hope tt today not mr lim inchrge.
met alice halfway
wahpianng,
i thought she at sch le.
AND THEN.
met liying carrying e saxo n e present.
then we went up.
im late, n he's in charge.
grrr.
tio drop loh.
n i brought e wrong present.
wahlao,
late for nth,drop for nth,woke up early for nth.
qi si ren.

violet n alice n pauline gave me xmas present
yay!
pauline gave all of clarinet section a frenship band,
GREEN color. -.-
alice gave me a winnie the pooh.
violet gave a veri CUTE clock.
thnkyou!

in e blink of eyes,
sec 1 orientation is coming.
2nd week of january.
today i xia dao when
sir ask e recruit i/cs to stand up..
ohh,
slack le so mani mths as a post holder,
my job has began..

AND THEN.
mr lim came,
said tt maybe d next yr sec1 shd learn from e choir,
how to sing.
omg rite.
band n choir is at war loh..
aft tt..
mr lim went to get tianjun n cheryl to DEMOSTRATE
to us how to sing correctly..
guess u noe how i feel..

then aft band,
went to see de classroom allocation.
4th floor change entirely.
abv 3a is 4b
abv 3d is 4e
then e other side is all sec 5..

elaine is v sad.
cos abv 3b is not 4b,but 4c

dun wan to do chinese magazine.
is realli sian de loh.

2006-12-13T11:14:00.000+08:00

din post recently..
cos im too lazy to do it.

fri
went band
tried to make de movie.
movie maker hung on me 5 times.
grrr.

sat
went band
ate at pizza hut with shirlynn,pauline,alice,zhenyi n peisi.

mon
i 4got.

yest
clarinet gathering!!
gosh.
it was so fun can.!!
we went CDANS for laser quest
n while waiting, we went bowling.
my first time bowling!!
hahah
so fun. =DD

then laser quest.
we went crazy de minute we went in.
we ran n scream blah.
hu care abt de rules =p

went bpp to eat.
then went library.

such a fun day..

looking forward to de next clarinet gathering!

2006-12-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

new skin =D

2006-12-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

thrs band yest,
n i was late
tgt with alice
cos i was waiting for her
then wait until late.

was going to fall in
when some1 i told me i dun nid to fall in.
lolx.
malu.
then von take attendance.

alto clarinet next year!

i cant tongue de running notes fast!!
oh gosh!
n sir sae he will test us on tis.
1 word,
lousy.

waniz wanted me to command
i cant la!
like my tongue is being tied up
urgh
n i command them like rubbish like tt.
if got chance,
i will..
erm, try harder.

who said commanding is fun. haix.

2006-12-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

long time since i update my blog.
err.
whr shall i begin with..

ohh,
syf'o7 set piece came.
got 2 pieces to choose with..
1st one is ikan kekek
2nd one is night safari(?)

both,
i dun like ><
i thought de set piece will be sth like
de previous syf set piece,
singapore rhapsody.

n it's nth like it.
but is fun luh =D

then..
liying wear braces!
omg loh.
then cant play flute
n piccolo.
she tried clarinet,
n sae quite pain,her teeth.
then went saxo.
ke xi ah!

then..
sat,
went out with alice n boon kiat
as,
he's going to ns liao.
n i go n pei alice oni.
went orchard
watched happy feet.
tt show is very lame.
anyway,
he treat us watch mah.
muahaha. =p
we went to eat jap food.
ichiban at plaza sing.
de yamaha shop thr is SUPER BIG loh.
wow!
got piano,keyboard,clarinet
n alot alot alot more instruments on display!
lols.
suaku.
i wanna go thr agn!
hehes.

n elaine got ear infection.
get well soon, xiang jiao mei!

2006-11-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

yest was e performace with westwind..
veri tired.
i have learnt alot.
not ALOT, but alot.
lols.

so fast next year sec3 le.
hais..

2006-11-21T15:14:00.000+08:00

mon

omg.
i reali cant believe my ears n eyes.
i called shufen in e evening
aft receiving her sms in e aftnoon.
she told me tt my appeal to course c1 was successful.
omg.
initially i tot she bluff me.
then i went to check.
gosh.

yupps.
im in c1 now..
with majority of my gd frens in thr..
jiaying appealed to course B successfully too =D
congrats!

life from next year will be tough.
><

today.
went band at 8.30am
so early lor.
tsk.
sir's mood not v gd lah..
then..
scolded us..
but aft a while..
things got better..

wanted to go bowling,
but my cousins came my hse.
have to stay at home.
haix.

then i came home.
stare at e comp.

comb. band is tis sun =)

i believe we can.
we can create de history.
the history of a gold.
a gold medal,
of kranji symphonic band.

2006-11-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

hoho.
came back from movie
with yunhui n a senior who i dunno wad his name is.
casino royale is super nice!
mus go n watch.
got some parts i dun realli understand la.
but then agar agar i noe e story line lor.

we cracked our heads tinking whr to go.
at causeway.
no whr to go.
then in e end we went popular.
e most suitable place to go for e 3 of us.

i keep suan-ing yunhui.
haha
so farni.
n im especially lame todae.
lols.
tts all lo.

6 more days to performace @ bukit batok cc

2006-11-20T10:08:00.000+08:00

fri

launch of chong jing.
went to sch at 8.30
no, 9.30 cos im late. =p
waited for e keyboard to arrive.
meantime,we went mac for breakfast.

de keyboard arrived!! =D
sandy played de piano,
n we practised de song.
n i haven memorise e lyrics.

i went ard loking for bandies
to help me pass my file to clarinetist.
i can oni find joanne. -.-

then..
off we go!
rehearse 1 time
then de dunno hu went wrong place.
err.
like dat.
i miss band practice ><

2006-11-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

2a'o6
-sec 2 camp
-june class gathering
-CFN champion
-frisbee competition: 2nd
-class chalet @ changi

it was until cfn tt 2a was bonded tgt..
n began to treasure our time as 2a.
the time was short..
but then..
we r a class =D

im so gonna miss 2a!

2006-11-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

a>

elaine. eating

tts wanlin. so cute rite. hahs.

wanlin =D

2006-11-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

course b.

speechless.

2006-11-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

Message:
Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head?

Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people...This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...
No Cheating!!

1.violet
2.natasha
3.shufen
4.simlin
5.elaine
6.yvonne
7.shirlynn
8.regina
9.yanying
10.jiaying
11.wanlin

How did you meet 10?
# in sch , in class 1a.

What would you do if you had never met 6?
# hmm, continue my life la.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
# wow. hu have never seen simlin cry b4?

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
# von n nat?? wad a weird combination.

Do you think 1 is pretty?
# yeh, everyone has their own te se.

Tell me something about number 11
# wanlin har,likes goong.

How do you know 8?
# in sch , class 1a'o5

Would you ever go on a date with number 5?
# eLAINE? nonononoono. sam will kill me X)

What's 7's favorite color?
# har? shirlynn fav color?? erm..red?

What would you do if 2 confessed he liked you?
# nat is a gal.

Fact about 9 :
# naturally pretty.

Who is 6 going out with?
# err.

Who is number 5 to you ?
# elaine is my counsellor-cum-sister.

Would you ever live with 11?
# never.

Is 2 single?
# nono. double. triple also can.

How much does 3 mean to you?
# hmm..she's one of my buddies okay.

What do you think about 1?
# trustworthy n loves to play.

What's the best thing about number 8?
# she draws fab.

What do you dislike about number 10?
# hmm.teh to much ><

2006-11-07T20:15:00.000+08:00

im using laptop now..

class chalet's over..
open hse's over..
i've got so much to update..y
n i type so slow using laptop.. ><
arghh..

today

went sch at 12nn
for de chong jing thing..
waited until like 1.30?
before tang jie came..
aiyoo..
nvmm..
then shunting,von,alice n me went bishan for movies..
deathnote.
its nice de lorh.
except tt alice alreadi told me de story liao lor..
sit beside me toktoktok abt e story.

n then.
alice treat von dinner lor!
todae!
now!
i tink they still eating lor!
!@#$$%^&*
nvm.
alice u owe me a sling bag.
hehe.

open hse

oo.
we performed once oni.
unlike last year.
we performed twice.
band booth was..
haha.
nice.
everything was like quite last min lo.
i oso dunno y tis year open hse so early.

xu meiling pangseh wo.
go beijing.
leave me here.
><

better come back wif sth for me.
lolx.
jus jking.

ehh.
no time le.
wait for class chalet update.
oops.

got my pic at gina's blog.
for ur info oni.
haahx.

2006-10-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

100th POST!!!!!!!
finnaly,,
=DD

went to buy chalet food n etc jus now..
super tired..
i wan to slp de!
woke up at 9am which is considered v early for me.
then meet wanlin.
we thought we were late.
but they were later.
zhanning,jinhui,yutze.
yutze enjoy polky?
hahas.

went to sheng shiong ten mile de.
hahas.
is second time go thr le.
first time is for the SL proj.
lalala.

SIAN.
later still nida go band ><
tmr to fri is de chalet.
fri still have to go band.
dun feel lyk going lehh.

actually i can dun go de.
but von u hav to go =DD
hahaha.

i dunno wad to bring to chalet leh.
err.
haven pack.
hehes.

oh shucks.
i haven finish ppt's captions.
tmr is de chalet!!

2006-10-30T18:36:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin =D
n..
been aud-ing
until sian.
heehs..
wed is de chalet! =DDD
hahahas..
tmr gonna buy food.
10am at cck if im not wrong..
then going to band aft tt..

im gonna stay 2 nites at changi chalet..
uh huh.
i veri timid wan lorh.
*shivers*
n i heard stories abt it frm sir badrul.
wah seh.

wish me gd luk hor.

n last sat got tutor come.
ee!!
flautist always got the most handsome ><
nvm.
i realised i have been breathing wrongly.
i mean breathing musically.
uh huh.
it's hard to change.
de tutor is lame lor.
-.-

de beijing immersion peeps going to beijing 1-10 nov.
shirlynn not here at open hse.
haiix.
i die liao la.
always lyk tt de shir.
leave me alone >.<

hope they dun freeze to death thr
muahaha.
Bon Voyage!
hahas.

2006-10-28T15:24:00.000+08:00

i din noe my clarinet has so mani cheese inside.
GOSH!
can make some cheezitos..
no prob. >.<
im gonna give my clarinet a thorough clean up!!!
arghh..

yippeee!!~
class chalet!!
im so gonna enjoy myself at changi!
like real.

2006-10-26T12:14:00.000+08:00

haha..
shd i be laughing?..
im getting bloody results.
sucky .
yest i knew my positions..
tears jus..
flow out..
in sch.

at home..
no appetite..
tok to simlin on phone..
cry again..
i had cried 2 times n stopped
she told me not to cry e 3rd time i cry..

haii..

2a rawks!
gd job 2a street dancers!
although not champion..
but 3rd is already v gd..
hahas..

yest went pizza hut.12 persons.
n e bill was like..
so long?
when we saw e bill,
we were like..
HUH?
its realli veri long.
gosh.
so funni
hahas..
n we took pictures in pizza hut.
mass taking.
oops.
pizza hut.
never took pictures in pizza hut b4.
n we were like posing those act cute poses.
lols.
hahas.
n poor yunhui was thr being our accountant.
pressing her hp calculator.
while we were taking pics.

2a rawks!!

2006-10-13T12:16:00.000+08:00

ohhya!
went back sch wif simlin..
haiis..
maths got 4D..
lame -.-
mine is 2345 n dunno wad..
then went limbang..
wanted to photocopy scores..
then canot.
shops not openn..
THEY EAT SNAKE DE!!!
eeyer.

waited n waited..
spent my precious 4 hrs at schh..
can sleep wan u noe..
but i decided to accompany simlin.
=DD see i so gd =p

maybe later going wanlin's hse..
hwei sze n sandy n yunhui at her hse..
i wan go play oso =DD

i will realli work hard for A maths de..
i promise.

2006-10-12T14:22:00.000+08:00

heehx! exam is officially over!
i realli did badly for it.
i jus noe it.
i dunno if is it my brain.
or is it de distractions i faced.

i oni noe tt.
my mum is going to kill me.
at 28/10/06 . 09.50am
='(

princess hours rox! =D
so nicee..

oh ya.
ELAINE ANG!
ni gen wo ji zhu.
arghh.
sae tt word one more time
u r dead .
-.-

2006-09-23T17:46:00.000+08:00

ytd mid-autumn was fun!
they sae band veri soft >.<
playing i not scared le..
but i scared stand drop or wadd..
thenn..
when i got to e part of enka medley
whr i always got high..
i was..
not high..
ENKA ROX!

going to mug hard liao le..
reallli le..
last time sae wan study oso never..
tis time mus realli study hard liao..

2006-09-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BDAE VERNON!

lolx..
they had e bdae bash yest.
i din go.. haiya..
bcos of bannd. =X
it was funn.
i heard.

i hope i wun land like vernon..
><>
i tink im safe..?

oMG.
MR TEo came back todae!!!
i almost cried lor..
i miss him veri muchh..
' u will oni treasure it oni when it is gone.'
[shi qu le cai dong de zhen xi]
but mikey teo is not realli gone..
luckyy..=D
i tink he looks better in his uniform..
mus take a photo of him tt attire..
heehx.

tmR!
mid autumn festival!
bannd is performingg..
i wanna wear class tee!!
e last tyme b4 exams. =X
although we not setting up booth..
gd oso la..
can prepare for exams..

oVERNIGHT CHALET.
omgg..
i tink it is at changi chalet..
eyrrrrrr..
i dunwan!!!
but then hor..
will be a memorable one..
e last..event as 2a'o6..
everyone cannot sleep hor!.
mus stay awake k!

mugging le..
less updates..

~~i dun wan to deceive myself anymore..~~
my feelings..
i dunno y he's thr yest..
n tgt with tt 'matchmaker'..
when they are not suppose to..
i admit..
i am shocked.
my heart beat so fast..
but..
wads de reality?
it's gone..
my fantasy..

2006-09-19T16:12:00.000+08:00

haha..
tmr having a bdae bash!
vernon better be prepared..
=D

exams coming le..
studyingg..
then..
jiayou lor..
2a'o6 rox for life!

2006-09-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

read shufen's blog..
actually i have got de same feeling as her..
i got a lil jealous of them.. ><
n thr r mani things which led to tt..

wahlao..
my mum dun wan to buy a digi cam..
i wan it!!
realli!!

im performing for mid-autumn =DD
YAY!!
so happii=))

exams is coming..
im studying..
not yet mugging..

i dunno start from which subject..
thus..
i tink im starting with PHYSICS.

bloody-physics
killer-maths

i wanna change blogskin!!!!

2006-09-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

todae rained.

i maybe not performing for the mid-autumn festival.. cos.. affect my studies.. it is streaming year liao ler.. sec 2.. standing in de crowd.. watching band perform..w/o me.. my heart will feel sour.. i dun like it ><..

EOY coming.. mug hard! MUGGING WAR!! MUG HARD 2A!! GAMBATEH!

[updated profiles]

~~i dare not look at you..~~
im scared tt..
my heart will bleed once again..
i wanted to..
but i could not..
im scared tt..
i finally get de ans..
which i dun wan to know..
i am deceiving myself..
but i dun wan to get hurt again..

2006-09-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

Relationship Survey

1.Single,taken or crushing?
-crushing .

2.Are you happy with your life?
-hmm..yes.

3.When you meet the right person, did you fall in love with him/her fast?
-er..depends bah..=)

4.Have you ever had your heart broken?
-yes?

5.Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
-no. wad is love if u cheat?

6.Would you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?
perhaps..no?

7.Have you talked about marriage with another before?
lol. im still young.

8.Do you want children?
as i said,im still young.

9.How many?
IM STILL YOUNG!!

10.Would you consider adoption?
yes! they veri ke lian wan..

11.If somebody like you right now, what do you tink is a best way to let you know his/her feeling?
erm..tell my trusted frens or me.

12.Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
im not sure.

13.Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did before?
no..no ex.

14.Do you believe in love at 1st sight?
if i sae no , mani ppl will kill me =p .yes.

15.Do you believe that you can change someone?
yes!

16.Are you romantic?
erm..i dunno.

17.If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
a veri sweet place lol.

18.Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
sometimes yes..

19.Have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed it up?
no.

20.Do you have feeling for someone right now?
yes ba.

22.If one day your best friend fell in love with the boy/girl who you deeply in love with, what would you do?
i will ask her how much she likes him..if it is alot..i will give up on him..and create chances for them..

23.Are you missing someone now?
obviously yes..